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affectionateSummer2004
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Good dreams hurt the most
Journals & Diaries / by affectionateSummer2004
Last post
 August 21st, 2022
...See more Have you ever woke up in the middle of the night just to realize it was a dream full of good things and the people who were there in your life but now they have disappeared it hurts when you realize it was just a dream a good dream but it hurts realizing that you cannot have them in real life after crying for hours and hours you finally sleep only to wake up again in the morning and pretend to sleep more because you don't want to get up and face things. You know things are not going how they should and you gave it time and think it would heal but even after years, you are present in the same place watching the world move on and laughing on your face. Do you ever feel like everything is happening in a loop which you cannot escape?
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have you noticed?
Journals & Diaries / by affectionateSummer2004
Last post
 July 28th, 2022
...See more I don't think you have noticed because you were busy giving me threats I've been crying wetting my pillow but no matter how much you try I'm still low Not my fault that you had a bad day but you say that to me every single day I'm done playing the games by your rules Coz all you have ever done to me is abuse I really want to let you go from my heart Alas! we share the same blood so I cannot stay apart I've tried convincing every cell in my body but the good memories of us are getting foggy Forgive me if I ever break your cage but you should know I was done playing on your stage I've decided that one day I will have a life A life where I cannot be stabbed again and again by your sharp knife
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someone??I can talk to??
Journals & Diaries / by affectionateSummer2004
Last post
 July 4th, 2022
...See more Today, I took my phone out which was resting in the cupboard for months I needed to talk to someone because I felt heavy I scrolled through the contacts Searching for someone I've been scrolling the screen waiting for that someone special to appear After hours of search, I couldn't find anyone "why?" My phone looked old with a broken screen then I realised there were no texts or calls I checked Instagram, Facebook, WhatsApp and mails there was still nothing left for me Anxiously, I checked my internet connection but everything was fine with it I got the answer to my "why" My phone was empty just like my heart because I never had such someone's in my life They told me they would be here my friends, my well-wishers, people who confessed to me they loved me people who once gave me butterflies But alas none of them actually cared I might be left as a dream in their memories but I'm sure they are nightmares in mine I sighed and put my phone back the place where it belonged, away from me!! But don't worry I'm not alone there is this little demon inside my head that keeps me company at nights........
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Need a listener
General Support / by affectionateSummer2004
Last post
 May 14th, 2022
...See more I need a listener who is comfortable talking about Self Harm with me
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whatever i want is on the other side of fear
Journals & Diaries / by affectionateSummer2004
Last post
 March 26th, 2022
...See more I fear ...... I cry ......... they talk...... I lie...... they happy.......my life ducked up...... I break.....I talk.......They angry....I fear.......... and the cycles goes on....>
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