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blackbutterfly95
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The Storm
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by blackbutterfly95
Last post
 April 5th
...See more I’m so sorry for the long post, but I wrote a poem about heroin and meth addiction from a personal perspective and wanted to share. This is my first time posting here. Please no judgment. They say, “There’s always silence before a storm, you see?” I never quite understood that — until the storm became me.   I used to be a calm, bright sunny day With a hint of rain floating gently my way. But I turned into a raging, violent hurricane, Mixed with midwinter’s brutal, freezing pain.   It took just one time for each to have me hooked — The little bags of death, the glass shards that were cooked.   The rattle of plastic still echoes in my brain, Along with the click of a torch — and the bitter taste of sin before the rain.   Each line a reminder of the chaos I’ve created, Each puff a memory of the times I wasn’t isolated.   Over a year now, I’ve drifted closer to the grave; I may be the storm, but most days, I feel like a slave.   I remember when my nights still glowed with light, Now every day’s a chase — no ending in sight.   I’ve burned every bridge, like the flame against my bowl, Can’t remember a time I was ever in control.   Day and night blur, my sanity fading fast, Replaced by the wide eyes of the storm — and euphoria that doesn’t last.   Will this beautiful pandemonium ever give way To something softer, to a new kind of day?   Will this raging storm ever calm, or wash out my dismay? Only time will tell — so I wait, Making lines, melting glass, Waiting for the storm’s fate.    Will this beautiful pandemonium ever turn the corner to a new kind of day? Will this raging storm ever calm and wash out the dismay?   Only time will tell so until I just wait, Making lines and melting glass waiting for the storms fate.  
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Is it just me or does anyone else connect with their music?
Music & Dance / by blackbutterfly95
Last post
 August 11th, 2025
...See more Any $uicideboy$ fans? I first heard them a few years back and didn’t really connect with your music until January of last year. My husband and I unfortunately fell into addiction and he was listening to some of their songs one day and it’s like their music hit me in my core. I could feel the pain struggles in my soul and their musicreally resonated with me and my struggles past and present. When I found out they were coming to NC This year as part of their tour I was BEYOND Excited and so was my husband. Unfortunately, something happened, and we are now not able to attend. I literally cried when I sold the tickets. Other artists I listen to just about 24/7 along with the Boys is: Pouya, Ghostmane, Ramirez, Diggy Graves, Shakewell and Unaverage Gang. If anyone has any other suggestions of artist or songs that fall under the same music genre, or not, please feel free to drop them below! I’m always looking for new music And have a truly broad spectrum of music genres that I listen to!
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