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Celebrating a hopeful win!
ADHD Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 April 4th, 2025
...See more I just wanted to pop in and say/celebrate that after 14 years of not being on ADHD medication, my primary physician is willing to start me on some again! Wish me luck! I am hoping it will help with some of my impulsivity problems that have started to become a bother for me at work, particularly when communicating.
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Speaking Impulsively
ADHD Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 November 6th, 2024
...See more Hi ADHDers~ So I've been noticing more just how often I talk without thinking. I know it's most likely due to my adhd processing and acting before thinking, and I feel like I have no control over it, which sucks big time. I recently had a rather embarrassing experience during a conversation with my boyfriend where I blurted out wrong information and he got very confused. He is aware of my adhd and didn't seem bothered by my sheer audacity, but still it made me incredibly upset afterwards because I absolutely HATE the fact that I cannot seem to think things through properly without speaking. I mean this is the type of stuff that could potentially get me fired from work if it was under a different context. So, how does an adhd-er deal? I mean it's not like I can just stop talking altogether. Is there an actual way to slow down our fast brains just a little? Anyone have any tips?  Writing things down before hand you want to say won't work if it's during a spontaneous conversation.  Spry of unrelated but I'm also done with this whole "showing myself self compassion" business during these blunders. What's the point of it if it's just going to continue happening to me again?  Anyway I was just wanting to k ow others experience with this impulsive speaking, and if they've been able to handle it in a way that's constructive and doesn't make them feel like they should just...not talk much at all?
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New Relationship Anxieties
Anxiety Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 May 11th, 2024
...See more Hello all, just felt like rambling here about some new anxieties. So I recently got into a new romantic relationship with a man and while I am over the moon about it, I've been struggling keeping my overanxious and insecure thoughts in check. I do have plenty of positives to report though. Like the fact that I told him a bit about my anxiety very early on, and about how I sometimes get catastrophic thoughts such as him thinking me annoying and all of a sudden never wanting to speak to me again (he then seemed to assure me that wouldn't be the case).  What's most encouraging is the fact that we've had a few honest conversations already, like the fact that it's been a long time that either one of us has been in a relationship, so he has said he may fumble and be a bit awkward at times. I said something similar and that we can figure it out together. I even went so far to apologize to him about how awkward I can be and that eventually I'll get over that, but he said something along the lines of he knows what he's getting into. I think that the biggest anxiety I have right now is figuring out our texting habits together. See, he's not really that big of a texter, and even his best friend and family have said so. When we first started texting, there would often be long stretches of time between texts, and sometimes he'd send maybe a few words here and there. He's also not one for good morning/good night texts either, but he does send some texts asking how my day is going if he knows I am at some event or training for work.  I am also completely fine that he's not a texter. Actually, it makes me feel more comfortable because now I don't feel as much pressure to "keep the conversation going" or try to say the "perfect" thing. He has also admitted to me that he's glad that I don't seem bothered by him not responding right away or texting very frequently. It can sometimes even come down to him not hearing the notification in his pocket, or his phone being in another room or far away when he's working at home. The problem is that my anxious brain seems to not like that at all...and that can be frustrating for me to handle. Like earlier today I sent him a picture of something low key and random and he responded in one of his usual shorter texts, which he has done several times before. My anxious brain KNOWS this. It KNOWS that he's completely different when we interact in other ways that is not texting. It KNOWS that when we talk face to face we joke and blabber on and on together like a couple of nerds (LOL ). It KNOWS that he's very affectionate towards me. But still, my anxious brain still wants to nudge me into thinking that his response meant something else, that maybe he's actually irritated that I sent him a picture. My anxiety latches onto that and creates even more catastrophes, like saying he's finally had enough of me and I need to be on edge because any second he's gonna send a text saying that we're done and he never wants to speak to me again! It's quite frankly super exhausting, but I feel like I'm getting a little better at handling it now than I was in the beginning (I was a complete mess in the beginning and would be near hyperventilation before somehow mentally slapping some sense into myself). Not only that, but the anxiety feeds my overthinking brain with questions. Have I been texting enough? Is it too much? Am I saying the right things? It seems to all come down with me thinking that I'm not "saying the right things". Does he know I care about him? How do I show him more? *sigh* Anyway, just wanted to get that off my chest somewhere so why not here? There really isn't any problem here, it's just my anxiety thinking that everything is a problem apparently. 😒 Any advice on cultivating a healthy relationship is appreciated, because this relationship is definitely a lot different than my past ones (which is a whole other thread topic itself lol)!
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Mattering to others
Trauma Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 September 26th, 2023
...See more Sometimes I feel like the pain I still feel from past traumas (mostly in childhood) doesn't matter to others much because somebody else probably has it worse than I do. Since I'm not part of a minority group, for instance, my pain MUST not be "as bad" as others who are suffering. I know this is probably not the case, but the messaging from both online and offline just makes me feel like trash for asking for help because I'm someone who is of a privileged group and "surely I don't need the help as much as other people". It's rather infuriating and invalidating. I understand full well that I have access to things that others don't and I do think about that a lot, but that doesn't mean that my pain doesn't matter. It matters just as much as everyone else's. You don't have to respond, I'm just mostly venting. Please understand that I mean no offense to anyone. I rarely talk about my past traumas so it may sound like I'm exploding at people but really I just wanted to get that out there.
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All the rage, and not wanting to be around people
Depression Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 July 2nd, 2023
...See more Hey everyone. So this is something that has been bothering me for a while. I am very aware that I might not find much help on this site and I just need to go to an actual professional, but until I do, I'd just like to rant about it some. So I think this started around summer of 2020. I was working a seasonal job. The job was cool, and my boss was a really cool guy. However, my co-worker was not. She was obnoxious and rude to me pretty much the entire time we were working (and living) together for the season. What's worse about all this is that since I lacked a lot of confidence in myself at that time, and I was a people pleaser, I let her get away with her bad behavior and was always afraid to tell her off even if she was clearly in the wrong. But that began a major shift. I feel like that was the point where my mind couldn't take it anymore not standing up for myself. After all, I never stood up for myself in school. I was always afraid to. After the job ended and I went back home, I felt all of these feelings of rage just pour out of me. Some of this rage was at the co-worker but most of it was actually aimed at myself. At my inability to stand up for myself, at my lack of confidence. And although the pandemic starting that year wasn't necessarily a 'cause' of my continued feelings of rage, it definitely didn't help. I began to notice just how awful other people can be to others. I hated hearing about bad behavior in the news. I hated how some people had the actual nerve to use "pandemic stress" as an excuse for their bad behavior towards others. I was just supposed to sit there at take it? Absolutely not. So that just made me MORE angry, which of course fueled my automatic negative thinking patterns. None of this of course was good for my periodic depression. Anyway, fast forward to now, and although the rage has stopped pouring out of me and I've grown a bit more in standing up for myself and others, It's still been difficult for me to go out in public and not be a little grumpy when I'm around other people. I don't want to make eye contact, don't want to talk to anyone else. I just want to run my errands and leave. I still expect the absolute worst in other people, constantly on the defensive if someone even tries talking to me. It's even affected my ability to look for romantic relationships because I am constantly thinking that the men I meet are going to make fun of me if I let them know they're attractive (listen I KNOW this is a very silly thing to think but for some reason my mind keeps bringing that up and won't stop) so I just don't even bother trying to meet them. It's not all hopeless, though. There have been many good exceptions. The job I have now is very nice. I like my co-workers, and have even gone to a few events in the new town that I live in. I have had a few pleasant conversations with strangers in stores (with them always being the one to reach out first because like I'd actually dare lol). However, I still feel like I am continuing to withdraw a little from society. I feel like my heart has gotten colder these last couple of years and I really don't like it. I do have medication to take for depression, but that only helps so much you know? Anyway, if you've read all the way to the bottom thanks! Like I said I just need to rant so you don't need to respond or anything unless you want to.
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A different way of thinking
ADHD Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 June 8th, 2023
...See more hello! I don't post in this forum often despite having ADHD, but I had a thought. I've heard many people offline talk about ADHD as just being "a different way of thinking" rather than referring to it as a disorder. I'm curious about what others here who have ADHD think about this? I personally have a hard time thinking of it that way considering my disorganized brain and executive disfunction is such a hindrance to me in everyday life. But perhaps it's different for others. Feel free to share your thoughts :)
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The opposite of hustle culture
Mindfulness Center / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 November 13th, 2021
...See more Hello everyone! I swear this post does have to do with mindfulness! I just wanted to take the time to talk about something that's been on my mind for quite a while. I've seen mindfulness talked about a lot in the scope of slowing down, a coping mechanism to combat or deal with 'hustle culture'. And while it's a great technique to use, I find myself actually getting discouraged by all of these messages online and in real life such as "it's okay to slow down" or "Take time for yourself." It's not that these messages are bad or incorrect or anything, but I find myself suffering from something that's not the 'majority'. I'm suffering from the opposite of hustle culture. I'm not talking about laziness. I'm talking about not being motivated, feeling disinterested in tasks, having self-doubt so strong that I delay work that needs to be done. Being so much of a perfectionist that I don't even start. I still get depressive episodes from time to time, which makes these feelings that much worse. So although these encouraging messages to combat hustle culture are fine and true, I cannot really relate to them. Because instead of needing to slow down, I actually need to speed up. Anyway, those are just some of my thoughts I wanted to share. Please if you also have been dealing with this sort of thing as well I'd love to hear your thoughts! I am told mindfulness and meditation can also be used to find motivation and energy, but I still consider myself a beginner in the practice and wouldn't mind if anyone shared how these techniques helps them become motivated. Thanks everyone!
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GRE Preparation Help Wanted
Student Support / by cafedaydreams
Last post
 March 10th, 2021
...See more Hello! I hope this is the right section. So I wanted to know if anyone in this community has taken the GRE (Graduate Record Examination) General test before? I have my BS and have been out of school for a while, but was recently thinking of going back to graduate school. If you have taken it, how did you go about studying for it? I know there are practise tests, and I do have a GRE guide, but I still wanted a little bit of insight from others. :) Thanks!
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