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My life sucks
Depression Support / by creativeLion2758
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 January 8th
...See more I don't know what to do anymore I am so lonely I never had girlfriend , last relationship was 10+ years ago , and it lasted 10 days maybe I don't have anything as a man I don't drink , smoke , do drugs and people don't notice me I have only one person who I talk to She is girl , she is my boss and maybe she loves me but I don't know And it's killing me Also they way we meet and everything is so fu.c.ked up .... I fell in love with her 3 years ago , we meet on one gathering, and we spent that day together, whole day , we talked , and I was thinking 2 months to send her message, but I couldn't cause I am not good enough for her, she is 10/10 I am 2/10 , and from than I saw her once a year I prayed to God that I can see her again , but now in april ,I wanted to ki.ll myself I wasn't working for 5 months, and on 23rd april I wanted to do it , but on 21st I went to church and said to God that I would do that , if he thinks I need to stay , I need job and I need to see some girl whatever, and one hour after that her brother called me to come to him , and there she was , when I came we talked again , she gave me job , and she was there , the girl that I fell in love 3 years ago , unbelievable right ? But I didn't think about that anymore , cause she is my boss now , she is sister from a friend , but now last 3 months something changed , we opened up to each other , she cried in front of me , about boyfriend, she told me she wants to be mother , have kids , we had deep talks , hugged a lot , she would come to me 300+km in one way for 2-3 days so we can "work" together and we would end up spending whole days together, not working at all almost She said several times in this 3 months that she is praying for me , she Invited me to come to her city , I went there , there was her boyfriend, but I was there with her in apartment, I went for 2 days , stayed for 20 days , she always would come up with some plan for me to stay for at least 1 more day And what happened now is that on monday she called me , she told me she thinks about me , she said she wanted to call me on weekend, she wasn't feeling well , she was lonely, and she cried to me , she said that she didn't want to call me to disturb me , but that she was thinking 2 days to call me or not , we ended up talking 3 hours , for at least one hour she was crying, she told me that she couldn't be here where she is now without my support, how she appreciated it , I gave her support cause I believe in her , and in secret I love her , she was later happy, she said how I mean a lot to her And in the end of conversation on monday she asked me , because she wanted to go to Greece to one Monastery, that's holy place , she always wanted to go there , she asked me if I wanted to go with her , I saw how happy she was and I said yes , but that's 7 days at least 1500km , I will be alone with her ,also I did research, you don't go there with friends, you go there with someone who is family or husband boyfriend, she will end relationship with this boyfriend, cause she is hurting her emotionally I think she deserves better than me , I am 26 she is 28 ,I am still like a kid , I don't have my life built the right way , I don't have anything to offer to that woman Even if I would like to be with her , I think I would be bad husband and bad parent , she doesn't need to be with someone who dont have house or something, or money to support her and family Would woman cry in front of someone who she thinks could be her potential partner ? Also I was never with woman , I have very very very small thing🍆 down there ... and its not working very often, she said she wants kids and family, and I don't have anything, I feel like even if she likes me that she would end up living me cause I don't have anything else to offer than this talks that we have
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