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...See more I just had my heart officially broken today... its not my first heartbreak and probably not my hardest. But Ive never had someone make me feel so completely rejected before especially one who claimed to love me so much the night before.... weve been together three months mostly happy. I let him know how happy he made me and how he brought levity to my life. We had a lot of downs due to my uncertainty of the relationship ... I did leave him feeling insecure at times ... but then I realized I cared about him so much and I wanted him in my life ... I wrote him a letter about how happy he made me. How much he meant to me. He loved it. We went camping last weekend and that night I got black out drunk ... I know I should never drink more than a couple drinks and I let myself go overboard and did end up getting confrontational and physical with him. Something I am still coping with and have talked to him about with me taking all accountability and he forgave me we ended up breaking up a day after that ... he basically just gave up on me and then added a girl he used to talk to on fb before meeting me after we discussed that she was a disruption to our relationship. He blocked me and added her within 5 min. Knowing how bad that would hurt me and he did end up discussing our relationship mishaps with her. More of a slap of in the face....But Friday he asked me to see a movie with him and I missed him so I agreed to it ... we went yesterday he took me to dinner and a movie. He told me how much he loved and cared about me. He hugged me and let me cry. I thought we were good ... he made me feel so happy .. he was sweet and cute .. i ended up sleeping over and cuddling with him all night .. choosing not to sleep with him just to keep my heart safe. We didnt talk about what we were doing cuz I assumed he wanted us to be back together which of course I wanted. I left to go to work and hadnt heard anything yet.... i saw this same girl liked his status he posted.... i knew he wasnt going to do anything about it so i called him asked him straight up what are you doing... what are we doing... his friend was over and his demeanor changed .. he acted like he didnt care... he didnt care .. he wasnt going to unfriend the girl... he wasnt going to make me feel secure again... I guess maybe hed get his break up sex by taking me on a date... after i hung up on him I blocked him on fb and any social media that could initiate conversation from either side. He proceeded to text me that we go our separate ways... he broke up on me over text.... I let him give up on me twice... After him telling me he loved me so much he did that to me... I have never felt so hurt ...he truly made me feel like garbage .. i cant wrap my year around the hurt and the worthless ness I feel

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