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diligentTriangle96
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Getting out of bed
Depression Support / by diligentTriangle96
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 February 15th, 2018
...See more What are some things or ways that help you get out of bed in the morning? I usually won't get out of bed until I have to, like for classes. Sometimes it's an 8 am and sometimes it's not till 1 pm. I've tried so many different things like giving myself plenty of time, coffee in bed, coffee out of bed, thinking of one positive thing about the day, setting one simple goal for the day, and even one benefit to getting up. Nothing seems to help me. I get plenty of sleep, sometimes almost too much, and no matter what I just have no motivation to get out of bed in the morning until I absolutely have to. Positive thinking never helps becaue there are no positive thoughts going on in my head right now.
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Depression Support / by diligentTriangle96
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 November 14th, 2017
...See more I've struggled with depression for 8 years and some anxiety mixed in off and on. This semester has felt like hell to me. I'm finally taking classes I find interesting yet I can't seem to get out of this hole. I've been surviving for so long I don't know what it's like to live. I didn't think I could fall any deeper but now it seems like I'm holding on with all of my very limited energy. Every morning I have to fight with all that I have to get out of bed and go to class. If I don't have an 8 am I won't get up until my class starts which could be 1pm. It takes all that I have just to face the world and when I finally muster up the courage to do so, I almost instantly regret it and wish I was in the comfort and security of my bed. I've been on medication for 1 1/2 years and I was so grateful that the first one I tried work. For a while. After a little over a year I became tolerant to it so I had to switch. Then I switched again. Now I'm on my third drug. I know for most people that's pretty good but for me I'm just waiting to find the right one. It's so hard for me to believe that a pill I take every morning is what's keeping me going. Keeping me suviving. Because all I can do is survive. I'm almost scared to find a medication that works well and takes away my excuse to be in bed all day because I don't know how else to function. I've been depressed for so long that I don't really know who I am or what my life looks like outside of depression. The fear of the unknown is crippling to me. Anyway, I almost never talk about my depression to people. In the last year I've lost just about all my close friends. I still have people I talk to in passing but no one I can go to in times of need. I've only told a handful of people about my depression which is why I'm so grateful for this community. I'm just some random person behind a screen name who can share her story. No one knows who I am or anything else about me unless I share it. That's oddly comforting to me because it allows me to be so much more honest because even if people were to judge, they would have no grounds to attack my personality. I know it seems like I ramble, but that's just how my mind works. I have a lot of random thoughts that spill over onto the computer.
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