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dynamicSailboat5643
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Life is worthless
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 February 11th
...See more Had a melt down and thrashed around on the floor. Every day is another day for me to realize how much I don't want to be a part of this world anymore.
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I just want to be held
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 October 14th, 2025
...See more And sleep for a really long time.
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Tired of being forcibly villain-arced
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 August 22nd, 2025
...See more Sister flicks me against the back of my head. I go to pull her sock off as a playful get back. She tries kicking me away and accidentally kicks her dog. I'm treated as the bad guy. Literally, it's an accident and not my fault. I wouldn't have put my hands on you if you hadn't put your hands on me first. Why do I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THE BAD GUY.
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My job has not paid me my final paycheck
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 August 11th, 2025
...See more I am so unbelievably livid and upset over this situation. After losing the job I desperately needed, now they haven't paid me since my last day which was July 26. They have the audacity to act like I'm the crazy one for being upset that they have no idea what's going on with my money. One of the managers literally told me that I need to be more understanding of the steps they need to take. I have never had a job that ne3ded to take more than 2 weeks to pay me. As a company, they would NEVER have to be understanding of my situation. They don't have to care that I can't afford my next $85 appointment. They don't have to care if I can't wipe my butt with toilet paper because I'm running out and can't afford more. They don't have to care if I was literally convulsing on the floor because I couldn't afford a medication I needed. They don't have to be understanding of my situation. And to top it off, I don't think my family is gonna be as supportive as I thought about all this. I could really use my sisters help with looking into the legality of everything and they've straight up told me that they are 100% behind me and want to help me research but I don't think they're actually gonna pull through and help. And if I get upset, I have a feeling they'll just twist back to me and tell me it's my problem and I need to handle it like an adult. An adult that never actually got guided in life in how to handle anything. Just a day ago I wanted to get into a group chat to talk to my older sister and my Dad about it and she completely shut me down and after the group chat was over she basically said she didn't want me to make it about me. I felt shut down and i cried and this was her apology: She said I wanted to turn the conversation into a me thing. I just wanted to talk to them about what was going on with me and not anything else (basically she just made that *** up for herself in her own head because I was also really excited tk talk to them about this dumb movie I found called Solarbabie but after her shutting me down i didnt feel comfortable talking at all anymore. Like, my family acted like they were also interested in hearing about it and wanted to talk about it but suddenly it's about me being selfishly needy, everything needs to be about me. Like wtf? What kind of backhanded gas lighting apology is that??? So I have no idea what to do now. I've called HR, sent multiple emails, and at this point my old job and my family are actually mad at ME for not shutting up about it. And the worse thing is is that I feel like I'm the ***. I feel alone.
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Failure
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 July 28th, 2025
...See more I lost the job I worked so hard to get. I had the option to stay if I worked hard enough. I thought I did. But it wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough again. I'm never gonna be good enough.
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I wish I was dead.
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 July 15th, 2025
...See more Even with a job I don't find anything about this life worth living. I don't have anybody. I don't like myself. I don't like the reality I live in.
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I Got a Job but I Hate that I'm Still Anxious
Anxiety Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 May 12th, 2025
...See more It's been a while since I've made a thread to update about my struggles with getting employment. I recently was able to secure an interview for a job. I was absolutely terrified beforehand but it went surprisingly well. I was called the same day and offered the position which made me really happy. I was feeling really self confident. But now all of the doubts and fears are crawling their way in. I just turned in my background check information and now that whole process is going. I guess my anxiety is stemming from the fact that I didn't really have certain pieces of information. I can't remember a single one of my old supervisor's names or their personal numbers. I also don't remember specifically when I left my old jobs because it was so long ago. Back then I was just getting my start into trying to build a resume and work career and I didn't think of those things. Most of my prior work experience is all seasonal stuff so I stayed for a couple months max. Never really bothered to remember names cause I didn't interact enough with my coworkers. At this point I just want to be able to build up to something. I don't want my bumbling past of being a poor employee to haunt me and ruin my chances. I want to be given a chance to prove myself and just reenter the workforce. I don't want to feel the need to beg like this. I just have this looming feeling like "oh actually after this background check we don't wanna hire you sorry lol." I'll know soon I guess. I just want to improve my life.
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Can't talk. Always shut down.
Depression Support / by dynamicSailboat5643
Last post
 April 5th, 2025
...See more Can't talk. So dissociated out of my life that any time someone confronts me about anything real I just shut down and I have no idea what to say. Can't say anything. Impossible to get me to talk at that point. Really wishing I wasn't me right now.
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