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dynamicWatermelon1293
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Eating Disorder Support / by dynamicWatermelon1293
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 March 11th, 2016
...See more Hi all I really need help. For years I've been bringing up my eating habits to the doctors but they are more concerned about my depression and anxiety and I have never had any help for my eating. I use to use self harming and eating to punish myself and hurt myself. I have overcome the self harming but not my eating. i am not wanting to lose weight or stay this slim. I don't make myself sick or concentrate on my intake of food. I starve myself for days maybe because I enjoy the pain of hunger then I will force feed myself because I know I have to eat. I can eat really well for a while after that then I do it again. Just starve myself, it's a constant battle and I don't want to. I really want to gain weight, I look at others and see their figure and wish I had boobs, a bum and nice legs. I am just a skeleton. I have tried so hard to overcome this myself but I can't do it. I have been this way for years and years. What's wrong with me? I know there's an espect of control and enjoyment when I do starve myself if that makes sense but I do try to fight it. I think it's only me that's does this because I don't fit into the textbook of eating disorders. Does anyone understand???
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