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emotionalOcean1985
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PathStep 7 Compassion hearts54 Forum posts16 Forum upvotes26 Current upvotes26 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2026 Member sinceAugust 20, 2022
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Self sabotage- how do I stop??!!’
Self-Harm Recovery / by emotionalOcean1985
Last post
 July 28th, 2025
...See more How do I stop sabotaging my life. I can’t live like this anymore My root cause to my addictions is I’m so scared to be happy so I keep purposely sabotaging my life by doing drugs and gambling all my money The more I say I’m not going to do it again the more I do it I need to break this but I don’t know how to I don’t know what to do anymore Nothing is working
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Self sabotaging addict
Addiction Support / by emotionalOcean1985
Last post
 January 13th, 2025
...See more Hey there im really hoping someone can help me as im so fed up of this road im stuck on. I know I HAVE the power to change but it’s like I cant or subconsciously just don’t want to and it’s like i want to destroy my life and lose everything. But I know deep down i dont and that i want to change. I just don’t know how to this time. I’ve quit before but this time it is sooooo hard. I know I can change my ways so why am I not? It’s like I’m not trying and I’ve spent so long resenting myself now that I think I genuinely believe I’m just worthless. please help me find the right tools to guide me back to the light and out of this darkness. I’ve watched so much on YouTube and nothing is sinking in.
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Struggling with cocaine and gambling
Addiction Support / by emotionalOcean1985
Last post
 July 8th, 2023
...See more I don’t know how to stop. I managed 6 months last time but this time I am struggling to stop and I can’t carry on like this. I need help
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Cocaine
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by emotionalOcean1985
Last post
 June 2nd, 2023
...See more I just want to stop and instead I’m using more. please can someone help guide me to the right path for recovery?
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Help needed for long term effect of rape
Trauma Support / by emotionalOcean1985
Last post
 September 15th, 2022
...See more It’s been nearly 9 years since I was raped and I am really noticing the mental health impact it’s having on me as I have still not really moved on from this or let go of it. It is still eating away at me and I wondered if anyone has any advice or can help me with coping with this trauma. The rape is the root cause to my drug addiction too so until I can move on from it then I feel I will keep falling back into this cycle of relapse.
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Help needed for quitting cocaine and gambling
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by emotionalOcean1985
Last post
 October 3rd, 2022
...See more hi, I’m just reaching out to see if anyone is here who can help keep me strong and motivated to quit my addictions. I have been on and off cocaine for years but it’s really spiralled again recently and when I do it I also end up gambling online to and blowing all my money. I swear to myself that I never want to do it again. I get to a week and then I fail and I can’t keep doing this. I do not really know what my main root cause is either. I hate this life I’m struggling on with at the moment and I know im so much happier without drugs in my life so why am I finding it so hard to quit. Does anyone else feel the same? I don’t want to talk to my family or friends as I don’t want be a disappointment anymore than I already have been for them. I don’t want to cause them worry, stress or upset. So I’m really hoping there is someone here that can help me with m journey to recovery and if anyone else needs support too then we could help each other.
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