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Depression Support / by emzy73
Last post
 August 10th, 2016
...See more I can't cope anymore. I can't do this day in day out
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suicidal nightmares HELP!
Depression Support / by emzy73
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 March 26th, 2015
...See more So i been diagnosed as having major depressive disorder about 6 months ago. I havr never slept good anyway but my tablets do help me sleep. I either cant sleep or sleep and have the most horrendous nightmares. Nightmares where i either die or commit suicide its that real i wake up in a right state. Im i going mad???
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narcassist mother
Safety & Knowledge at 7 Cups / by emzy73
Last post
 February 19th, 2015
...See more Has anyone got any experience in helping me with having a narcissistic mother? Or anyone else relate to this post and can share any helpful information please
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Have i lost the plot???
Depression Support / by emzy73
Last post
 January 28th, 2015
...See more Been on medication for depression about 3 months now. Been doing okish but now starting to go backwards. I feel very anxious feel like i wanna explode. I have awful thoughts and my mind is in full blown turmoil and i don't know why. Im upset by these feelings my mind is killing today. I put my smile on for my kids but its getting so hard. i feel like im looking from the outside in to the world. Have i lost the plot? Im at the drs tomorrow again but i find that si stressful too. I just want it all to stop 😢
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im i just feeling sorry for myself?
Trauma Support / by emzy73
Last post
 January 26th, 2015
...See more I suffer badly due to my past especially my childhood. But because i don't really know what normal life is am i just dwelling on the past? Just an insight into mylife My mum hated me from the minute i drew breath. She was abusive in every single way right up to adulthood. I was mentally abused every single day. I was r*ped when i was 6/7 by a stranger whilst playing in fields then battered by her for getting dirty ffs. My parents separated when i was 7 she continued her torrent of abuse towards me. This then involved her new partner aswell. When i was 13 her second husband tried to kill us. She was badly battered till i intervened and hit him stunning him a little. I got to the house phone to phone emergency number for him to come round ripped the phone from me strangled me unconscious. Dont know how long i was out but i managed to jumped out the window and phone from a callbox. It was like a murder scene when we returned home.......i risked my life to save my mum and then after i had even more abuse from her blaming me for it all. So was my fault my own dad left and now my fault my stepdad did that. As far back as i remember i have wanted to die....my life was un bareable I felt worthless. I then yet again suffered been sexually abuse whe i was 17 by my boyfriends dad. All the above is just a small amount of my life but effects me still each and everyday. Im in my 40s and still live in a dark place in my head. Should i off got over it all by now?
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feel so alone & twisted
Depression Support / by emzy73
Last post
 November 19th, 2014
...See more So i have been free from depression for about 6 years but now its back again. Majorly back that my heads exploding with thoughts of hate, harm & suicidal thoughts. Im not good at explaining myself but did try to get across to the doctors how bad i feel but i think they think its just a bad week. gave me a number to phone....that number for general anxiety so no good. feel such despair
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Two people one body
Depression Support / by emzy73
Last post
 November 14th, 2014
...See more Dont really know how to start. Im like two people one part of me is happy smiley helpful to everyone life is good but i can go from that to been totallt opposite depressed, down, hopeless and suicidal. I then feel guilty for feeling like this. i went to the gp 3 weeks ago to be given a leaflet and told to phone a number and they could help. I did phone but 4 weeks till i can have an assesment. Feel very mixed up with it all
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