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I'm melting! ๐Ÿซ  (Fun fact: I'm not really exuberant)
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โœจ๏ธ Hey there! โœจ๏ธ

I'm Blackberry, you can also call me Berry. ๐Ÿซ

I'm a teen from India. ๐Ÿ“

ย My pronouns are she/they. ๐ŸŒˆ

I struggle with depression, anxiety, loneliness, overthinking, self-doubt, and just a lot of mental health struggles in general.

I also deal with school stress and the stress of dealing with not-so-great parents who can sometimes seem great.

Although my username might call me an exuberant Berry, I am actually anything but exuberant.


I don't have anybody in my offline life who can support or listen to me or someone I can talk to during difficult times. Except maybe my therapist, but that's very limited. ๐Ÿ˜”

I'm not sure if I have any true friends in real life, 7 Cups friends are all I have and I'm incredibly grateful for them. ๐Ÿงก

I rely almost completely on 7 Cups for emotional support. ๐Ÿ’™

I am a totally different person at home, in school, and on 7 Cups.ย 7 Cups is where I am my most real self and I love 7 Cups more than anything else on earth. โ˜•๏ธ

I love being here because here, I get to be more of the person I really am. ๐Ÿ˜Š

I love helping out as a smile spreader on the Peer Apprecaiton Team on 7 Cups! Feel free to fill the form hehe. ๐Ÿฅฐ

I will never forget the people I have talked to on here and who have listened to me and talked to me, and I really do miss talking to my friends who aren't around anymore.


I am quite an emotional and sensitive person, and it's sadly very easy for people to make me cry. ๐Ÿ˜ญ Please be kind.

As much as I can cry sometimes, I also have times when nothing makes me cry. Those times are so hard because crying kinda helps me get my emotions out. ๐Ÿ˜ข

Every so often, I feel like I am done with life and I feel like giving up. โ˜น๏ธ

I find I very hard to keep going, it is very hard to find the motivation to keep going, but I try to find reasons to live. ๐Ÿ˜”


I am, if it's correct to say, addicted to 7 Cups and YouTube. I spend a lot of time on Cups and it is important for my survival.

I like plant photography, and just nature photography in general, but I don't know if I call that a hobby. ๐ŸŒฟ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿ’š

I love rain more than anything else in the world! And I have always loved it all my life. ๐ŸŒง๏ธโ˜”๐Ÿ’œ

I am really scared of dogs ๐Ÿถ, though I love cats. Meeeooow ๐Ÿ˜บ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿพ


"Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also harder to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say, 'My tooth is aching' than to say, 'My heart is broken'." ๐Ÿ’”ย โ€” C.S. Lewis

"People talk about physical fitness, but mental health is equally important. I see people suffering, and their families feel a sense of shame about it, which doesn't help. One needs support and understanding." ๐Ÿ’š โ€” Deepika Padukone

"When you're surrounded by all these people, it can be lonelier than when you're by yourself. You can be in a huge crowd, but if you don't feel like you can trust anyone or talk to anybody, you feel like you're really alone." ๐Ÿ˜” โ€” Fiona Apple

"If you know someone who's depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isnโ€™t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather."ย ๐ŸŒง๏ธย โ€” Stephen Fry

"The worst kind of sad is not being able to explain why." ๐Ÿค” โ€” Unknown

"Thatโ€™s the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that itโ€™s impossible to ever see the end." ๐Ÿ”š โ€” Elizabeth Wurtzel

"Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that tries to die." ๐ŸŒน๐Ÿฅ€ โ€” Danny Baker

"Your abuser's trauma does not justify them abusing you." ๐Ÿค• โ€” Anonymous

"Verbal abuse is still abuse. It's abuse in the form of words. Don't assume that a few hurtful words won't cost them their life. Words hurt." โค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน โ€” Unknown

"It hurts the most when the person that made you feel so special yesterday, makes you feel so unwanted today." ๐Ÿ’” โ€” Anonymous

"Family is supposed to be our safe haven. Very often, it's the place where we find the deepest heartache." ๐Ÿ˜ญ โ€” Iyanla Vanzant


"When you're depressed you don't control your thoughts, your thoughts control you. I wish people understood that." ๐Ÿ’ญ โ€” Anonymous

"My thoughts are destroying me. I try not to think, but the silence is a killer too." ๐Ÿ™ โ€” Unknown

"Depression, for me, has been a couple of different things โ€“ but the first time I felt it, I felt helpless, hopeless, and things I had never felt before. I lost myself and my will to live." ๐Ÿฅ€ โ€” Ginger Zee

"This is not the life I wanted, and I do not want to have it anymore." ๐Ÿ˜” โ€” Anonymous

"I am laughing and smiling but on the inside, I am dying." ๐Ÿฅ€ โ€” Anonymous

"Keeping a lot to myself, because it is hard to find someone who understands." ๐Ÿ˜” โ€” Unknown

"It is that feeling when you are not necessarily sad, but just really empty." ๐Ÿ˜ โ€” Unknown


Rain, rain, come today, โ›ˆ๏ธ

Hide away another day; ๐ŸŒง๏ธ

Little Berry wants to say,ย ๐ŸŒง๏ธ

"Rain, rain, I love you, yayyy!"ย โ˜”๐Ÿ’œ


โค๏ธ Thank you for reading through this! โค๏ธ

๐Ÿ’• Sending you loads of love and warmth ๐Ÿ’•

๐Ÿซ Berry ๐Ÿ“








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Baby koala and a dead tree ๐Ÿจ๐ŸŒฟ
Pen Pals / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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February 4th
...See more hey @theboymoana ๐Ÿ’› i'm a dead tree, terrible to handle, i bring everyone down. if you still want to talk to me, you can, otherwise, just ignore me. i'm here for you, though. feel free to vent here whenever to need to. how're you feeling right now? anything you wanna get off your mind? *hugs* ๐Ÿ’›
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A space for Ria and Berry
Pen Pals / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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June 17th
...See more hi @hardtobeRia. feel free to talk here if you want. no pressure. how are you, really? feel free to vent or anything. and if you dont wanna talk, that's ok, feel free to ignore me. i'm here for you, though. ๐Ÿ’™
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The beauty of nature around us ๐ŸŒฟโ˜˜๏ธ
Hobby Zone / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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January 21st
...See more hi everybody!ย nature lovers, welcome in! ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’š i think nature is very beautiful, for lots of reasons. the beautiful colours, fresh leaves and flowers, and just its simplicity in this complicated world. the way it can comfort us and calm us down. so, iย try my best to captureย the beauty of mother nature in a way we can remember them for years to come. ๐Ÿ“ธ while there are many elements of nature, rain being my favourite one (which i unfortunately haven't yet learnt to capture on camera), the ones that i generally focus on photographing are plants, the sky and the sun. and of course, the beautiful scenery when we go on trips hehe. โ˜˜๏ธโ›… i was browsing through my pictures and thought of sharing a few on 7 cups, because nature pics can be incredibly calming for some people to look at. soย here's a thread for me to share a few of my pictures of the beautiful nature around us. ๐ŸŒฟโ˜˜๏ธย  to start off, here are a few pictures of mine that i came across and think i can share here. here you go, i really hope you like them! โœจ thank you, everyone, for taking the time to look these pictures that i've taken. i truly hope you could enjoy. feel free to let me know what you think about them, and also feel free to share some of your nature pics, i'd love to see. ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’™ tagging @Sophia7721ย and @BlueDarkAuroraย i really hope you like the pics hehe. ๐Ÿ’™ย i might use this thread to share some pictures whenever i feel like it. so feel free to subscribe to this thread if you're interested. ๐Ÿ’™
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Inside a dark and thorny blackberry bush
Journals & Diaries / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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June 11th
...See more hi, just in case anyone's reading. ๐Ÿค after a lot of thinking and overthinking, i realised something โ€“ i really need a space to vent. a space where i can go anytime. where i can talk non-stop without feeling like a burden. where no one has to read or hear my nonsense. becauseย i really can't manage anymore without doing ultra long vents and just getting everything out of my head. i badly need to get it out, in a healthy way, you know? this is supposed to be that space. i'm hesitating a lot, but a forum thread for this feels like a good idea to me for a number of reasons. this might feel more like talking to someone because of what i'm used to, but then no one's forced to read whatever i write here.ย i am known for writing essays and that can be bothersome for the reader. but that won't be a problem if no one is forced to be a reader, right? i've tried venting in a notebook. it helps to some extent, but it feels kinda lonely. and my hand hurts after writing 4-6 pages so i get forced to stop writing even if i haven't gotten everything out. typing is easier and i'm really used to typing a lot on 7 cups, but i feel like a bother when i type too much to someone. and lately, i don't feel like i have a place for ultra long vents. with the private journal feature, entries get lost and i can't find them easily if i wanna read them later. plus, typing there feels lonely. so i think a forum thread for myself might be a good idea. maybe it'll feel less lonely and i'll feel like i'm talking to someone because i'm on forums, even if i really am not talking toย someone. and no one's required to read my nonsense. the reason i call it nonsense is because i don't expect myself to make sense here. i might sound really random, insane and nonsensical and maybe even type gibberish. i know anyone on the internet can see this and read this. but no one is forced to read, right? and i wouldn't really recommend reading. whatever i write in this thread could be, and probably will be, dark, depressing, overwhelming, triggering, anything. no one has to read it. in case you want to, that's okay and it's up to you, but please proceed with caution.ย replies are welcome, though i really don't think anyone would want to do that, and no one's forced to read or reply. anyway, yeah, after lots of hesitating and overthinking, i suppose i have a space to talk non-stop whenever i feel the need to. ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค
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A space for Lena and Berry
Pen Pals / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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May 16th, 2025
...See more Heyyy @kenzolena here's a thread for us to talk. i really look forward to talking to you after so long. feel free to message me here anytime you want. thank you so much for being here, it really means the world to me! ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค
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A space for Sundae and Berry ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿซ
Pen Pals / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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January 15th, 2025
...See more Heyyy @sundaevin how're you doing? we can talk here until you become an atl hehe.ย thank you for reaching out and wanting to talk even after aging up, it's really kind of you, sundae. not many people really ever do that, so a big thank you to you. thanks for being here for me, it means a lot to me. โค๏ธ
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A space for @nouhamarouanii and Berry
Pen Pals / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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December 8th, 2024
...See more Hey hey @nouhamarouanii you can share all you want here. I'm here to listen, I'm genuinely willing to listen. Feel free to come here anytime you need and vent or rant as you like. You won't be a burden to me, I assure you. Please keep going and don't give up, okay? ๐Ÿค๐Ÿคย *sending lots of hugs and love to you* ๐Ÿซ‚
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Good moments ๐ŸŒˆ
Positivity & Gratitude / by exuberantBlackberry9105
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November 22nd, 2025
...See more hey everyone, i'm creating this space for myself to come to every day, hopefully, and share my good moments. โœจ when i say 'good moment', it doesn't mean i have to feel happy or anything. it could be anything that made me feel a tiny bit better or something that made me feel good for a little bit. it could even be something that happened that's supposed to be good, even if it didn't change how i feel. or if i'm having a particularly bad day, a good moment could be a moment when i just didn't feel that horrific. and of course, it could be a moment when i just somehow magically feel fine for a bit, with no apparent cause. magic, lol. ๐Ÿช„ i've recently realised that thinking of good moments makes every day feel a tiny bit different, instead of every day feeling the same and having that school, homework, exam, eat, sleep, repeat cycle going on. when i'm depressed and have been for months on end, it's really easy to just see that and forget the good that does occasionally come. perhaps after a while of posting on this thread, i might even be able to go back and read previous good moments when i'm feeling awful. i know that every time i try to feel better and actually get to feeling better, it eventually comes crashing down soon and i feel bad again. but i guess i'll try to feel better anyway by focusing on the good moments. and when i do get to feeling better, i want to make the best of it and use it to get work done, so that the times when it gets bad again don't affect my schoolwork too much.ย  i will really try to come here every day and post something, even if it's very small and seems insignificant, even if i feel like i didn't have anything good happen that day. and if i ever have a miracle day when i have a lot of good moments, i'll try my best to list them all out for me to read on the awful days that follow (somehow my really good days are always followed by some reallyย bad ones, and it sucks). if i ever miss a day of posting, i will try to post that day's good moments the next day. i know that sometimes i will need to mention the bad stuff too here, to be able to explain why something was a good moment, but in general, i will try my best to avoid talking too much about the bad on this thread. thank you, @bestVase7265, for encouraging me to write down my good moments. this idea of yours has been of a lot of help to me. i hope it works well with this thread for posting good moments. feel free to follow along and read whatever good i find every day, and share yours too (only if you'd like to, of course. you can always just stick to our space if you wish). ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค anyone else reading this is welcome to share their good moments as well, i'd love to hear them. wishing you all the best. ๐Ÿ’™
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