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Crippling Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by exuberantPerson75
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 April 26th, 2021
...See more Hi, this is my first time sharing here and I want to say that I haven’t been officially diagnosed yet but if anyone can give me some advice I would really appreciate it because life is becoming really difficult to live. I have anxiety everyday where I feel so fidgety my mind is constantly racing with negative thoughts. My heart starts racing and I feel a sudden urge to just scream and cry. I feel anxious about every little change that takes place in my life. I feel hate waking up everyday, I dread going to work everyday because the night before I can’t fall asleep because I feel like I am not good enough for my job. I feel like I will fail and I won’t perform well and I will get fired. Even though it’s not a hard job but I feel so bad about myself. Every time there is a change at work I feel so anxious that I freeze and have to take a few breaths before I can go back to functioning like a normal human being. I feel like quitting everyday but I am not good enough for anything else. And now my partner is getting tired of me but I don’t blame him because I wouldn’t want to deal with me either. I am so behind when it comes to people of my own age group and I feel like I will never be able to progress because everything in life increases my anxiety and I am so tired by the end of the day from my own thoughts that I just lay in bed paralyzed by my own thoughts. Please help me
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Life in a few words...I guess
Anxiety Support / by exuberantPerson75
Last post
 June 13th, 2020
...See more Hi, I am new here and I am not sure what I am looking for but here's my story. I have not been officially diagnosed with anxiety and I don't know how that really works. I am not good at asking for help. It all started 3 years ago when my brother started getting in trouble with the law. I remember I was in class when I got a phone call from the court telling me my brother has been arrested and I need to come for the bail hearing. He was constantly going in and out and as the older sister and the only guardian I had to make multiple trips to the court and detention centre. There was a lot of begging people to help me bail my brother out, getting blamed for my brother's actions by my father, waking up in the middle of the night by a phone call telling me my brother was in a car accident, taking care of my younger sibling while working, going to university and dealing with family drama. I went through it all and I was a mess. I didn't turn to drugs or alcohol but i was an emotional reck. Crying in the middle of the night, at work, at school and just going through the emotions just to survive. I stopped feeling happiness. I couldn't find joy in anything I knew I had to get my degree and somehow I managed to do it but I lost all motivation to strive for a good career. I just wanted a job to pay my bills and I had it. Someone told me recently I have no amabitions and even though it hurt I know it's the truth.
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