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My addiction story.
Addiction Support / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 April 11th
...See more I was addicted to adult contentsince I was in 9th standard. Usually I go the adult sites when I feel like i am not enough or not really doing well. When I feel I have none to call my own partner. Whenever I feel like i am in college but still I am not able to find a partner, than I feel not good enough and I go back to watch adult content. I am trying to get out of this habit but sometimes I do some relapses because I feel like i am not doing enough and have no Romantic partner and this is the moment when I go back to watching adult content. I know I need to be patient with finding a partner but every once in a month I need someone to remind me that but right now I am feeling so much negative thoughts and feelings about this that I am feeling very uncontrolled and I am feeling very close to relapse, thankfully I didn't relapse today, but I need help.
Can anyone suggest porn blocker app ??
Addiction Support / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 April 10th
...See more Can anyone suggest me free porn blocker app. Because my credit card is not able to make a payment right now. And I want to block porn on my phone. I tried to install brainbuddy app but it also requires paid membership. I need a app which block porn and which also helps in rewire and have community to talk to.
Going through some tough time and existential crisis and have nothing to turn to.
General Support / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 March 24th
...See more Lately I am feeling very down so much going on inside like everyday I just feel like i don't want the another day like thisand worst thing is I feel all alone in the situation, which is so frustrating that people I love I can't talk about this it them or they won't understand it. Lossing trust from the people to share with and don't want to complain to the people everyday too. So i am trying to write this here. Everyday at the end of the day I came in my room and cry till I sleep. I feel so lonley at that time, loosing connection with myself and wanting to run away from all of this. It feels frustrating that I don't know who to talk about what I am going through, my family just don't care about this thing. I don't want to share it with the friends. Listeners here, sometimes I tried to talk to them but don't want to talk to them everyday about how bad I am feeling. I don't feel like going to college tomorrow, it sucks to go in public when I am feeling like this. I have to go to college tomorrow and take test. Because of this mental state I had a relapse light night (pmo) and now i am feeling like a failure too. There are a lot of things going on but I am feeling all alone in this and don't have any energy to go through this.
Self harm thought?
Self-Harm Recovery / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 April 3rd
...See more Lately I am feeling a bit more stressed and having some negative thoughts. Lately I am having self harm thoughts,( not to do any kind of self harm) but having some thoughts, like it would be more relief if I wasn't exist or something sudden happens to me so I don't need to go through this. I had a Lil feel fight with my mom and sisters and I had a thought that may I go out and don't come back home to them ever or something happens to me. I don't know why but this is happening to me.
Will I ever be worthy for love ?
Relationship Stress / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 March 8th
...See more Right now I think a lot of being not be able get love. Wherever I go, either it's college, home, parties, vacation and gym, I always miss that I didn't get any person to love me. I am 20 year old and I did get rejected by more than 4 times by girls till now and didn't get any girlfriend. I feel like i am not worthy of the love. At the time of life I am feeling this, so much. Even my best friend sometimes mocked me up that I didn't get any girl. I try to do my best but still girls rejected me. And now at the point of life I am feeling like i am not worthy of love and I won't be able to find love in life ever. I am feeling so lonley at this time. People say this is the best time of person's life. But I didnt get anyone. So I don't think I will be able to get love later. I try to focus on myself, try to do gym, did work on myself, improved grooming. But sometimes you need someone to love you or so you can love someone. It feels so unworthy that at this age I am still single. I don't know what is the problem. I tried everything I could, cause I am introvert I tried to talk to girls and tried to be more present in social environment but It doesn't work. And now I am thinking there is not any single girl at this time in the world cause everybody is taken now. I feel so alone need some help about my situation.
When will it get okay??
Relationship Stress / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 March 3rd
...See more My sister is having abusive behaviour and which always cause conflicts and chaos In house. She is so abusive at one moment and next moment she behave like she said nothing. Her behaviour always cause chaos in house because of that being at home on weekends feel so stressful. I don't know is this only her fault or others also. But this is affecting my mental health and elder sisters too. She is also at home and studying for competitive exam to get job but she ( younger sister) is abusive to her because she is most of the time in day is studying for her. In the morning it always chaos at home and after some hours it is like nothing happened here. If someone else would do this kind of things to me I would ignore them but she is my sister and I don't want her to do this at home. Sometimes I worry about her what will happen to her after marriage because of her behaviour. In my surroundings I see a lot of girls getting divorce because of this. I don't know what is wrong with her, is this my parents fault that they didn't give her enough love in childhood that she became this bitter ?? Or is this because she is struggling with her own issues. She did completed her post graduation last year. But sometimes she behaves like Teenager. I don't know what she wants. I am am her younger brother and in my family there is only dad who earn money so it is really hard for my dad to provide her more money to study as we all are dependent on our dad for money. So I wonder about her a lot sometimes. I have a lot of problems in my life and this is also causing me stress. Sometimes I think about moving abroad to study so that I don't have this kind of problems and also maybe I will be able to provide my family some money. But there are so many problems and I don't know what to do. there are so many things going in the life and I don't if this ever gonna be okay or not. Or I will spend my life with these problems, trying to solve everything and ending up being depressed person in family. Not living life really like i want.
Porn addiction ( urges to masturbate after 24 plus days )
Addiction Support / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 March 21st
...See more I am struggling with self confidence, self worth and so many stresses also. I am on nofap for 24 days or more. For some days I have been struggling to deal with it, life is becoming stressful and frustrated for some days and my urges are increasing and I am feeling very less control over it. I am struggling through many problems right now, my name have been strucked off the college by a rude teacher and it has caused me so much stress and today I am feeling so many urges to ***. I don't know how I am gonna do my brain rewire, I am having no motivation or energy to do that. I don't know if this gonna help me or not or how I am gonna do that. Need some help.
Not feeling well inside. Need some help with this.
General Support / by exuberantTalker9747
Last post
 February 8th
...See more I wrote some lines to express what going inside me, which are like this - Sometimes these feelings are too much with me, Too much that sometime I barely can breath. I tried to distract myself and tried to make myself feel good, I tried to watch some interesting movie and made myself my favourite food. But all of these things barely helps me calm, Cause the anxiety and pending works are always here to harm. I made some plans, to win the battle of life, But I starts failing as soon as I try. I just feel this way and I don't know how to tell this, hope someone understands this. I don't know is this because I of addiction which I am trying to cope with and now 1 week clean. Or is this because of new struggles in life. I am trying to change my old habits, old thinking and trying to replace them with new healthy habits and trying to chase my Lil goals and be better person now. But this seems like not going anywhere but a constant loop of trying to be what I can't be. It is feeling so hard and in my mind I am feeling like a crap right now. Old thoughts and scenerios are coming inside head again and again. Feeling lonley and *** again. I didn't even started going to college this semester and feeling like i already need a break which I am on, from 2 days. Something is upsetting inside me. I don't know what to do with these feelings. It requires a lot of efforts for me to write these feelings :⁠-⁠( Thanks for reading this.
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