Im not sure what fun is anymore. I am I'm old but in my brain, I'm still young.

I am a victim of Lymes disease or what I call aliens. My life has completely almost come to a stop.
I am also a recovering drug addict and alcoholic and am 12 years clean.
Right now I am trying to relearn how to live my life and let go of my ex-husband because I am the one that walked out on him 20 years ago. Up until last summer we were continuously in contact until I ended it.
I am single and I have a special needs daughter.
I'm looking for Life inside me again. If any of that make sense.
I am also a huge music lover and goes to concerts as much as I can.
To much?.