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greenSpringYG13
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PathStep 29 Compassion hearts34 Forum posts28 Forum upvotes17 Current upvotes17 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2020 Member sinceOctober 31, 2018
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Hi! I'm Samuel (he/him) and I'm tired. I have severe anxiety and may panic for a time after anyone messages me, so if I don't answer for a while just know that it's not you, it's me!
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childhood self-punishment?
Anxiety Support / by greenSpringYG13
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December 16th, 2018
...See more hi all! i wasn't sure what to title this thread. so, i've had anxiety pretty much since i was born, according to my mom, and i've been formally diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder for a really long time, but i don't have many memories of my childhood (which i suspect to be from constant anxiety, which causes stress, which would cause my memories to not have encoded properly). also according to my mom, i've been punishing myself since i was a kid? she says that if i ever thought i broke a rule, she wouldn't even get a chance to punish me because i would have already put whatever toys i had away, and go sit in the corner and put myself in time out, and even when she tried to convince me i hadn't done anything, i would stay there. i'm curious as to what this might be? like, i have no memories of it, so i have no clue what my motivations would have been, or what i thought i'd accomplish. does anyone have any ideas ?
first counselling session in years !
Anxiety Support / by greenSpringYG13
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September 25th, 2023
...See more this probably doesn't matter too much, but i had my first counselling session in years today ! i haven't been in 5 years, and i don't remember much of what happened the last time. i didn't even get to talk much today, it was just filling out papers and getting analyzed since it was my first session, but i feel like i learned a lot ! i was very afraid going into it that it would be very religious-themed (i am agnostic and have had some troubles with christianity in the past, so when they were advertising as christian therapy i was a little worried, but i had no say in it because my mom chose the place for me and would have got mad if i asked to go somewhere else) and that the counsellor would be mean, but she was actually really nice ! they have an art room in the clinic, so i'm a bit excited to see what i can do with that. sorry if it seems like i'm bragging, i'm just really excited ! i've been very anxious lately, so i very much needed this
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