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Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by griffdawg81
Last post
 January 31st, 2022
...See more What brought me here well can be a lengthy explanation but I'm going to try to offer a brief summary of what exactly has brought me here I've struggled with mental and emotional problems for as long as I can remember I'm a 40 year old male I have been married for the past two and a half years and my wife has really more than most people has noticed that I have deep struggles in this regard and helped encourage me to get medication I was put on Prozac few months ago and could tell that everything was a little bit better but ended up not being able to have my medication consistently supplied and then convince myself that I didn't really need it my wife along with many others had told me that I could tell that the medication had made a very positive impact whether I had realized it or not and being off this medication people had let me know they were starting to tell me that I was getting bad again they can tell a negative difference 12 last weekend went out with a date night with the wife and ended up over indulging and got upset over some things like went from having a great night to just super upset over losing this money can't calm down almost in like a blind rage on the way home in the car got very upset started flipping out hitting things in the car and she in turn and keep in mind was also pretty intoxicated got very upset with me not being able to calm down screaming at me to stop when I was doing and then we ended up getting into a very crazy fight and I went to jail for the first time in my life and I cannot have any contact with her or return to my home so just like that and one night I lost everything so I realized for years I have self-medicated try to manage my extreme ups and downs manic episodes xcetera mood swings also being a part of this so this was a catalyst hitting rock bottom per se to try to seek help this is the first step and what I know is not going to be an easy or short Journey I wish I had taking the initiative to get the ball rolling old helping myself a long time ago and maybe could have avoided these things but that being said I would like to say hello to all and I feel welcome in this community and I'm really enjoying this application is my first day but I've definitely gained some helpful tools already and have had a very good listener that I spoke to earlier
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New here want help with myself
Newbie Hub / by griffdawg81
Last post
 January 30th, 2022
...See more I believe that most of my life I've had issues with depression more than likely some bipolar manic issues as well although undiagnosed here's my story that was a catalyst for me coming here... I had recently been on Prozac for a couple months but went off the meds due to inability to get in to see my doctor like I should last weekend my wife and I went out on a date night I had overindulged as well as her but things were going great. I got really upset over losing some money completely unrelated to our evening but I could not get over it would not come down and I had hit the dashboard of the car a couple times and she became more anime and angry herself that I needed to calm down and stop hitting the car next thing I know and mind you I'm piecing a lot of this together still over a week later we got into a fight over her phone because she tried to kick me out of the car... long story short what B I can even remember we both got into a physical fight and I went to jail for the first time in my life and cannot contact her currently or returned to our home... my wife and several people friends and co-workers included had all been able to tell that the meds had helped me a good deal and when I was no longer on them was also told that they could tell that I was getting bad in my right mind I would never put my hands on this woman she's my best friend's I love her a great stepmother to my son and I still can't piece these things together she has been pushing me to get help to try to talk to a counselor now I feel like I have lost everything I've had many thoughts about hurting myself in the past but never as serious as I've had this past week I have not had a desire to drink and mind you I have been a heavy drinker for over 10 years and almost daily and it may be a situation where it's too late to really save things but I want to continue going through with the help because I realized that I have several underlying issues and want to get better
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