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...See more so, i live with my bf and his family. yesterday, when we were in the car, my bf and his mom got into a huge fight and she ended up kicking him out of the car. i asked if i could get out too, since i wanted to be with him, but then she got upset with me too and subtly flipped me off before telling me that my bf and i could pack our things and get out. i chased after him, and when he noticed, he started yelling at me for being so stupid. apparently he had told me to stay in the car, which i didn't hear, and now since i didn't listen to him, i made things worse. he kept yelling at me the whole time we were walking back, telling me that we're over and not to talk to him. we came back and started packing our things. he called my mom to tell her, and i texted her begging to let him live with us. she refused, but said he could visit whenever he wanted. anyways, we ended up not getting kicked out, but my mom's refusal to house him made him hate her. he told me not to expect him to talk to her or be nice, since even though his parents are very toxic, his mom still allows me to live with them and his dad also would if it came to that. today, i woke up scared. i hid in the room all day because i was too scared to leave, but hiding also made me scared that my bf's mom would get mad at me (she has high expectations for people, same with my bf). you see, i grew up with a mom who'd do everything for me so i "wouldn't do it wrong," and so i developed the mindset of "don't help unless asked." well, one day, my bf's mom was folding laundry. then she got *** at me for not helping, and i only found out after she finished it then complained to my bf about it. she threatened to kick me out because of that. afterwards, i started helping my bf with chores, but he started getting mad at me for "doing it wrong" or "taking too long" so he started taking over, just like my mom did. now, every single day, i'm scared out of my mind that his mom will think i'm being lazy and then kick me out. anyways, a bit ago, i went with my bf to go to 2 stores before he had to go to work. as we were leaving the parking lot of the first one, a line of cars at a stoplight blocked him, and he was already running late, so he was stressing. in the parking lot of the other store, he blamed me for him being late to work nowadays and said he will no longer take me to my mom's to visit if it happens again. then when we got out, he started speed walking. he's 12 inches taller than me and kept getting mad at me for not catching up. i had to keep jogging. then when he grabbed a drink for himself, i let him know i didn't want one, then he went like "you've been laying in bed all day and now you're acting like a spoiled kid." i was laying in bed all day because i'm scared of his family, and all i literally did was say "i don't want anything." after he dropped me back off and i went into our room, i instantly got reminded of the taco bell from earlier that i barely ate. i didn't know they were getting taco bell, and my bf got me a LOT of food even though he knows my appetite sucks so all i do is waste food these days. i hid it from him because if he saw i didn't eat it, he would get super mad at me for wasting food, money, and starving myself. i have no idea where to put it though, so it's making me anxious. i really want to eat and gain weight, so when i tried eating earlier but nearly vomited before even swallowing my food, i just started crying. i went from 105 to 91lbs, and i'm 5'4. on average i'm 100lbs. it's genetics so being underweight is natural for me, but i can't keep losing weight

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