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hollyhighh
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PathStep 6 Compassion hearts14 Forum posts19 Forum upvotes24 Current upvotes24 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2021 Member sinceJanuary 30, 2020
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Hives
Anxiety Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 August 10th, 2021
...See more At this moment my entire body has broken out in hives. Like I’m red all over. From literally my forehead to my toes. My arms and chest look ridiculously red. Does anyone else break out like this when they have anxiety ? I’m trying to be calm but that only seems to be making it worse..
This weather thiugh
Depression Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 August 5th, 2021
...See more I can’t wait for summer to officially end. I want / need the cold. Please and thank you 💕❤️🐈‍⬛🥰🪴
Gaining / losing weight ?
Depression Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 August 6th, 2021
...See more I used to have a serious case of ana. I was happy but I ended up sick and in trouble. Now I’m basically a stay at home wife and my weight isn’t 106( like it should be ) but instead it’s 132. I feel AWFUL. I have zero energy to do anything. Even the things I enjoy. Like quiet yoga in the morning. I saw myself in the mirror today and I realized that I need to make some sort of change. Please, advice ? Any opinion that might help ?
Suspended from work
Personality Disorders Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 November 25th, 2021
...See more I have a question. I have some really bad issues that I’ve been trying to deal with but caused me to have an episode at work. I turned in an ada form letting them know I have Ms, adhd, ptsd, ocd, depression, severe anxiety, severe social anxiety, seizures, bpd and insomnia. ( I did not mention the insomnia in my ada ) I almost had a seizure the week before from stress and anxiety. I was shaking so badly I had to leave work in the middle of my shift. After that everyone was acting weird towards me. I’m not always the best but I try. This being said im a bartender. I went into work on a Friday and was told by my manager and hr person that I was being suspended until they could perform an investigation of whether or not I had been drinking at work and giving away beers to my significant other. I was not giving away beers, I always paid for them. I was drinking at work because my manager changes the damn menu every week and I have no idea what I’m doing half the time because it’s always different. This being said EVERY PERSON in the restaurant and the bar drink. The manager himself drinks wine every night with all the rest of the employees. So if they’re investigating me, shouldn’t every other person there get in just as much trouble as me? The servers were ordering drinks for themselves and everything. I need to email HR higher up in my company because I haven’t heard anything in two weeks. I honestly don’t want to go back but I don’t want to be fired. Any help would be seriously appreciated. I have no idea what to write in this email or how to go about it. Thank you in advance ❤️
Ideas for a tattoo ?
Anxiety Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 November 15th, 2021
...See more I need to cover up some pretty awful scars on my arm. I know they’re hard to tattoo over but I was thinking something music related to remind me I’m not alone. I’m worried I won’t be able to cover them up all the way. I don’t want a piano though. And that’s really the only thing I’ve been able to think of :/ 🎹 suggestions? Ideas?
Destruction ?
Depression Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 August 4th, 2021
...See more So I feel terrible. But I really hurt myself the other day. I need a tattoo idea to cover it. Have any? Edited by Asher, 08/04/2021
Yo so like , lil peep ?
Depression Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 August 4th, 2021
...See more I never found a artist in my age I understand. He broke my heart. Am I wrong for loving his thoughts , his noise his gorgeousness. I’m just trying to be. To survive. I can barely listen to my music so this has been keeping me company. I don’t deserve you But I could be cool too I just hope my life ends up in the place my heart has in mind.
Debilitating anxiety + ?
Anxiety Support / by hollyhighh
Last post
 August 13th, 2021
...See more Please be kind, I’m v new to this. I have so much anxiety I can barely get through this post 😅 There’s a lot going on in my life that I have zero control over. The things I do have control over I’m too anxious, depressed and tbh terrified to deal with. It’s causing a spiral in my life. I’ve not been doing well dealing with my bpd ( or the other things wrong with my being. ) My anxiety is through the roof. Like every moment of the day I feel it. I’m here because I feel like I might need help dealing with some of these (and other) issues. I lost my job about a week and a half ago. Due to absolute ridiculousness that wasn’t even my fault. This being after I’ve already been down on myself for months. I feel like I’m losing touch. I might be disassociating again but I can never tell until after 🥲 The world feels like it’s crumbling around me. I feel like I’m always running from something from nothing from everything. I might have lost bits of myself in the avalanche that the pandemic brought along. Actually I know I did. Because I feel empty and like I’m searching for something ? Im trying to look towards the future but all I can see at this time of day is my ten pm ambien calling me, pushing me into the next day. Then my eight am adderal telling me it’s okay to function after. I’m trying, I am. The only way I can describe the seriousness of my anxiety etc is to tell you that sometimes I can’t even go outside to take out my recycling. It’s like I’m “ breaking the barrier “ if I go outside and I’m not safe anymore. I apologize for this being so long 😔 I really don’t know what I need. I’m hoping someone out in this world can remind me what it is or spark something that reminds me who I am. Or maybe I’m just scared. I don’t really know 🌙
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