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indigoThinker9085
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Making new friends
Depression Support / by indigoThinker9085
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 January 15th, 2023
...See more I would like to make some new friends that I could maybe message sometimes. I am very shy and don’t always know what to say. If I do say something I usually try to make people laugh because I always try to make people smile or make them happy. If you’re not shy please don’t hesitate to message me. Maybe we can chat about the most random things. Thanks for reading.
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Asked my daughters father to leave
Relationship Stress / by indigoThinker9085
Last post
 February 24th, 2022
...See more I asked my partner to leave, my daughter has been looking for him this morning and it breaks my heart. I really thought because of his ex that he would want to be a hands on dad. He isn’t he sleeps all day and expects me to look after our daughter on my own. I came to resent him because of that. It was like my ex all over again, although my daughters dad didn’t emotionally abuse me. It still made negative comments about things and I’m starting to try and build myself up.put my life back together recover from the things I have been through. He has a cannabis addiction and the promises of I’ll quit when we find out if we are having a boy or girl came and went. Then it was when she was born. Then it was when she is toddling. Now she is nearly 18 months old and he still hasn’t quit. I feel so so guilty, but I need to put her first and a parent that sleeps all day is as good as absent. Not what I want for my daughter. Her dad is now making out that he won’t see her because I threw him out. That’s his choice not mine. If he actually gets off the cannabis then, we could actually be a family. He doesn’t see his behaviour is selfish. I know he is hurting and feels like I used him. I didn’t. I wanted my daughter to have her father but not the way he is. If he won’t change for her, then is he ever going to change? Probably not. Now I feel even more isolated than ever before. I just want to curl up and sleep. Ironically. Until I feel better but my daughter needs one parent to put her first despite what I am feeling. It’s still really raw at the moment. I just need to write somethings down just get it off my chest. I have some support but it still stop me feeling alone. I have no one I trust to babysit if I need it. I guess being a single parent is my path now. I will try my best to make my daughters life better than I had growing up. I do feel guilty about her dad leaving but it’s best for both of us.
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I don’t know where to begin
Anxiety Support / by indigoThinker9085
Last post
 September 5th, 2021
...See more I miss my son very much and I’m so anxious about having to fight to get him back, my ex took him away. I am so worried and upset that he will be failed again. I told everyone my ex would stop me from seeing him. I’m told them about our toxic relationship they didn’t listen to me, I’ve been let down by so many people, when I phoned everyone for help that are supposed to help they didn’t listen to me, so I have to make a very hard choice to leave my son behind so I could get some help. I feel like I’m drowning in anxiety and stress and depression. I have a ten month old who needs me, I think she keeps me going. Otherwise I would curl up in bed and just sleep for a while. Just to have a rest. I’m going to have to find all my strength to go through the process of getting my son back. I know I can do it I’m just so scared of the journey and now i will handle the stress of it all. It feels good to say it out loud.
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