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Relationship Stress / by ivoryCamp2081
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 July 3rd, 2020
...See more Whats going on everybody? I am now over two months in with my ex wife being gone, and I tell you people say it gets easier over time theyre right.by no means does that mean you stop thinking about them or miss them any less but what it does mean everyday isnt as gray and rainy as it appears. I find myself (since pursuing my own happiness and being the best me as I can), some times having small blips of that negative insecure side popping up. While I want my wife back by all means and in every way, it bothered me that I still had moments of the past person and thoughts of old feelings. Staying positive and striving for greatness and security emotionally and mentally is tasking and easy to put down. I think the hardest part so far for me has been having patience and really having a deep understanding of her feelings and pain that I have caused over the years. After I sit back meditate, take some deep breaths, and remember her and my son and what Im fighting for it takes all those negativities away. For all in their journey with me in self transformation and understanding of ones self remember why were doing this, why we started, in the first place and it will get us through. Ive said it a million times and Ill say it again, for myself I wanted to be better and I will, for my son I needed to be better and I will and for her , the women I want to spend the rest of my life with, I need to be patient,understand, listen, and be there, and I will. No matter what.
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Relationship Stress / by ivoryCamp2081
Last post
 June 25th, 2020
...See more A victim to life lessons only learned through mistakes that appear permanent. Trapped in text feelings of anxiousness,memories of of pain, I stand by for your message. Locked in battle I challenge my mind to not wonder,conquer insecure thoughts, the fog never clears. Freedom Independently Every word, binding. Every reaction, devastating Every conversation,heart breaking If I knew the answer, I wouldve finished the test by now, but there arent any real answers. Every question laced with sarcasm and every statement planted rage. There are no answers. No magic words to get it right, now Magic wand time make it disappear. This path I must take, is devasting, brutal, emotional, painful,confusing, and filled with adversity...and I walk it firmly grasped in my understanding of what I desire. while I hurt Inside my body weathered and battered pushed forward. For you my love I wont stop, but if thats not the path you chose, then our paths shall never cross. A love so deep no barrier could interupt way to you, if I had the answers to what path youd chose. its hard to be away, no direction but steadily I move, just hoping our paths cross and my path would lead to you.
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Relationship Stress / by ivoryCamp2081
Last post
 November 3rd, 2019
...See more Hey, first birthday without my wife, and really first birthday alone. I honestly can say its been the worst bday Ive ever had and wasnt a lot of celebrating. Having to spend it no family no wife no son isnt exactly the best. With my ex spouse choosing to go to an event instead of spending the bday with me, it might be the clear sign of no matter how much you change and how patient you are it takes two for a relationship. And I want to be perfectly clear thats my ex wife were not together and shes not obligated to spend time with me, but it doesnt make the sting any less painful. Patience is key, but if a person wants to be with you (this is especially true in my opinion with an ex) they would. I believe in self happiness and being true to myself, because I couldnt love someone and make them feel loved if I didnt love myself. With that being said I still feel how I do with wanting my ex spouse, but if there was ever a sign that she doesnt feel the same I feel it was today. thanks Any and Everyone for listening, needed to vent. be strong everybody, were all here together and if anyone needs it Im here to listen.
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Relationship Stress / by ivoryCamp2081
Last post
 November 1st, 2019
...See more This isn
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 October 27th, 2019
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