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...See more Im new and I don't really know how this works but I've been trying to talk to someone on those online chat things but no one is responding so I hope by the time I post this I can at least get a response when I wake up tmw anyways on to my problem I'm14 years old to start things off and I really wish to get an adults perspective of this and not just my friends and I don't know anyone that is an adult that I can talk to about this but just to jump right into it I lost my virginity to this guy that I don't even kno to begin with. my friend gave me his Instagram and we talked on there for like 2 weeks we both lived in the same part of town but went to diff school now before u think omg why would she talk to a random dude online it could have been a 50 year man. Trust me I know better and watched to many crime documentarys and stuff to know that this dude was 14 like me trust me anyways that's not the problem so back to the story I end up inviting him over and he comes ( ik this doesn't matter but he was realllllly cute)but anyways my uncles meat him btw my uncles are 17 they don't care what I do but there protective of me so they ofc had to meet him frist and plus I live with my uncles my mom and grama and grandpa but all the adults were at work when I brought him over anyways my uncles meet him they go back to there rooms across the house and me and him go to my room now I don't want to go into detail but you aredy know what happens next anyways were done doing the drity and he just held me in his arms after and I felt so safe with him like all my worrys in life were gone so eventually he went home and we texted still but then things didn't work out so be stoped . After that I became really depressed cryed almost every night thinking why wasn't I good enough for him or pretty enough and ik this is illegal but might as well say it cuz it's one of the things that I'm here for I started drinking to forget about him I've drank before but that was with friends and I was having fun now this drinking is different I'm sad and it feels like I'm drowning I'm sleeping a lot loss of appetite the things that made me happy like the sport I play don't make me happy every day I think about him now I'm just going to stop right here cuz I'm really tried there's more to the story and more things I need help with but frist I just need someone who can listen so hopefully I have a response tmw goodnight everyone <3

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