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linvi
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all thoughts welcome- can it stop?
General Support / by linvi
Last post
 October 1st, 2025
...See more I keep myself really busy. like so incredibly busy. and since starting to do so all the time in January I've felt better. and I didn't realize just how much business was a part of me until now it's summer and I can't stay as busy, and I'm depressed some days again. it's not all the time but the random depressive episodes are always lurking and I'm terrified of the next one every time. I've also been experiencing major anxiety. three of my best friends are moving away in a month and I fear loneliness more than anything.  If I have a lot of really happy days, and I have good friends and a good home life, and I'm exercising and sleeping and mostly eating well and making sure I'm mostly regulated, I feel almost normal. happy. but the bad days always come around again. That's been the case since I was 10 years old. I want to know- does it ever go away? can I make this stop? Yesterday was a really bad day and today feels like recovery for it and truly I don't want to live my life like this. But I still want to live my life. help, please
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LOVE ADVICE HELP
Relationship Stress / by linvi
Last post
 September 8th
...See more I have a friend who says he likes a girl (this girl isn't very kind. He knows this and doesn't like it but still mentions her sometimes). They're not dating and she doesn't know either.  I like this friend. And something happened today that I NEED people to help me explain.  for two years he has been very kind and very supportive. Weve hung out a lot alone and he was there for me through a painful breakup months ago.  Last night he hung out at my house and we had a wonderful evening sitting outside on the deck.  He invited me to go to his house today at 2 to watch a football game, and after a morning of goodwood and spilling salad dressing in my dad's car, I left to drive to his house and he greeted me at the door. His family was so kind and welcoming, and we joked around about how my dad doesn't know anything about what goes on at where he works. We went upstairs because the streaming service was having technical difficulties and he braided my hair and gave several hugs. We went downstairs to briefly watch the game as I drew on his arm. We went back upstairs twenty minutes later. He told me I was loved, cared for, not judged. I cried in his arms because I felt overwhelmed with love after a long conversation about the future. An hour after playing a wii game and talking and me crying, he ended up holding my face. He was staring into my eyes, and told me he loved them. He has my hand on his chest. He said he found it weird that I could feel his heartbeat. I told him his eyes were pretty and he blushed. We looked at each other for a good ten minutes. He was staring intently into my eyes the whole time, I closed mine or looked around the room because eye contact is scary. He was stroking my cheek and staring and occasionally adjusting his face... It felt like he was about to kiss me. I leaned against him a few times in a way that he could easily lean away from my face but he always stayed close. Finally I leaned back and let him look at my eyes again and he leaned his face against mine so our noses were touching and he could have kissed me if he titled up his chin just so. I froze. I think I wanted him to? But also that would make things complicated?? He could have kissed me. He said several times he could feel my heart beating faster and his was as well. He said he isn't usually this close to a pretty girl. We stayed like that for a minute and i don't really remember what happened next. Besides I drove home.  So confused and somewhat dazed. This lovely wonderful boy is in my life and I don't even want him to leave my life and if we kissed or were romantic I'd be scared of losing him forever if it didnt work out.  He likes another girl though. Help???????
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major heartbreak right now
Relationship Stress / by linvi
Last post
 August 6th, 2024
...See more I broke up with someone I was so happy with but he started not putting any effort into anything, making excuses about it being too hard to text, ignored me consistently for three months, started swearing again and the breakup conversations lasted basically three weeks on and off and it's finally over and I feel awful he was one of the first people I trusted with anything, like had genuine trust and love for and he was always so kind and sweet until the end when he couldn't be bothered to text me. he made several excuses and said it was basically too hard and that he doesn't want to talk to me and needs space. He apologized for everything but it still all hurts so bad and I feel guilty like I did something horribly wrong He did a lot of things I was blind to at the time so I'm glad we broke up but I still care about him as a person and I feel so I don't even know someone give advice?
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recently came out
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by linvi
Last post
 July 19th, 2024
...See more I came out as bi my friends a few weeks ago and some of them said they already could tell, but they were all really supportive and nothing has changed in our relationships except for my best friend makes the occasional joke. (Get this- I told my best friend and she told me she's never told anyone and wasn't sure if she was going to but she came out to me as bi too!! it was crazy, she's my cousin tho so we both have a friend we don't have to worry about romantic feelings for which is amazing) I haven't told my family but I think I'm ok without telling them.  I was just excited and wanted to share and maybe give someone some hope if they're scared to come out.
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my boyfriend barely responds to me and keeps apologizing but isn't trying any harder to respond
Relationship Stress / by linvi
Last post
 August 23rd, 2024
...See more He's had this problem for a while where texting people back has been hard. It was fine with me for a while until he got out of school, and now he barely texts anyone. I've seen him a few times and we're always having a happy time and he's not ignoring anyone on purpose, I'm just getting frustrated and unsure on how to talk to him about it. He's not even busy, he's just on his computer. Quality time is my love language and the longer he ghosts me the more insecure I feel in our relationship. The longest was three days with zero texts, we talked about it, I wasn't super dramatic about it I just told him it worried me because it wasn't like him and i just needed him to say goodnight so I can get rid of intrusive thoughts that he's hurt or something. But this last week has been awful for me, very physically painful- a really sudden medical issue arose and it's better now but I'm still crying about it at night and I have no support from anyone, no friends or family because they all seem to think it's fine if I'm able to go to school and my boyfriend won't talk anyway. I feel so alone and scared, and I want to say something less understanding just to get him to say something. He's constantly on technology and the only thing stopping him is anxiety over what to say and i sympathize with it but I don't think it's fair to just ignore people over it. I've put in a lot of effort and went out of my way to communicate with him when he needed me and him not doing that right now is really hard. He's a lovely person and this is his only issue but it feels big. Idk what to do.
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i don't know if i can keep going
Depression Support / by linvi
Last post
 April 27th, 2024
...See more i sometimes feel like I don't deserve to keep trying, I'm constantly causing problems for myself, making everything hard, I don't know I feel so lonely sometimes, because my family has never taken me seriously so I've decided (about a year ago) to stop trying to tell them altogether. no more being honest with them with how I'm doing. they literally do not care. my parents in particular. I'm the oldest of five and my siblings are either too young or too weirded out by the oldest kid struggling, so I have three or four friends that I talk to, but one of them always turns it to be about them, one doesn't respond super often (I don't see him all the time so it's mostly over text so I try not to bother him with that stuff cause the time we have is precious) and another friend who's also struggling a lot. life is just so much. I'm so terrified. I tried to end it, and still haven't told anyone in my life. i feel like I'm getting a lot better but I'm still so scared and done with this and maybe i can't trust myself to be alone I can't say that enough  I'm so done I'm so tired I'm so over this can someone please just give me advice and encouragement like all those other posts on here that get like 36 responses of people trying to help i just need reasons to stay and to keep fighting and promises that suicidal thoughts can eventually go away from someone who's overcome them please
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can someone please help
Autism Support / by linvi
Last post
 April 4th, 2024
...See more I feel so incredibly alone and like I'm taking it and like I'm never going to be able to figure myself out I feel like spewing all my symptoms and someone telling me that I'm not stupid for feeling so much like this is right I also feel like giving up on it and just continuing to struggle with understanding myself I feel so out of place everywhere Does anyone care that I'm here? Or that Im still alive
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friend thread for mentallyafish :)
Pen Pals / by linvi
Last post
 February 12th, 2024
...See more @mentallyafish hey hopefully I got your username right :) how are you doing today?
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