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lunarpanda
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Do I have depression or am I just a whiner?
Depression Support / by lunarpanda
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 June 14th, 2018
...See more I know that I have been unhappy for many years but I do not know if it is an illness or I am just being immature and selfish. I enjoyed travelling, photography and going to social gatherings. I felt beautiful and awesome. My confidence and self esteem were way up there. Lately, though, I am no longer able to do any of those things I loved because of marital and parental obligations. I feel like they are getting in the way and I am stuck in the system. I love my husband and my kids, but I am unhappy with my situation. My husband is a very responsible provider. He also loves me so much... but whenever I tell him that I am unhappy, his response is always "What else do you want?!" If I tell him that I want my old self back then he'd remind me of my supposed priorities. If I ask him to travel with me, he always has his excuses. He never runs out of excuses. We rarely have sex too. Even sex feels more like an obligation rather than enjoyment. I told my bff how I felt and the response I had was "You are lucky to have a responsible husband and a complete family." When I look at my pictures from 2012, I look like I'm just 18 years old... now, I look like I'm 60 years old ---- wrinkles, fat body and grey hair!!! There are times when I just cry in one corner because I don't know anyone who has been in my situation. Sometimes I watch depressing stories of other people to remind myself that they had it worse yet they are still there.
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