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PathStep 10 Compassion hearts18 Forum posts8 Forum upvotes10 Current upvotes10 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2021 Member sinceSeptember 16, 2021
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Stupid senior year
Depression Support / by marijuanasoup
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 September 21st, 2021
...See more Right now I’m in the lowest point of my life and it’s been bad for 2 weeks but there is only so much a person can handle. I don’t feel safe alone and I’m fully aware I should somewhere I can stay, be safe, and be watched until I’m better (nice words for psych ward) but I know if I do I’ll fall so far behind on my school work and this is my senior year so everything matters plus the only thing I can do right in this stupid world is get good grades. Right now I’m a straight A student but I know even if I miss two days I will not have the effort to make it up and it will be like a domino effect until I fail my senior year and then I’d be nothing. I don’t know where to go from here? Do I pick safety or success?
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When does someone cross the line of unforgivable
Family & Caregivers / by marijuanasoup
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 September 17th, 2021
...See more My mom was terrible to me until I turned 16 and she finally grasped the reality that she couldnt use me as her emotional punching bag anymore cause I was at the age where I could finally stand up for myself. The last 2 years she’s been trying to be better but that doesn’t mean she has been. I understand all she wants is a relationship with me but I can’t forgive her for the years and years of nothingness she made me feel. She has ruined touch, eye contact, compliments, my physical appearance, and my self esteem over the years of never being enough for her and i can’t get past that. I want a relationship with her but my hate for her is rooted so deeply that I don’t know where it starts and I end. I know I’m hurting her so deeply by denying her a part in my life but I don’t know how to get past all the trauma she has caused without her at least acknowledging what she has done.
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Best friend with bpd
Personality Disorders Support / by marijuanasoup
Last post
 September 17th, 2021
...See more My best friend has bpd and tends to become way too involved with men who remind her of her dad- meaning abusive. Within the last few months she’s gotten super attached to this guy and he’s horrible to her but she can’t see that. She’s changed herself so much to fit the standards he wanted even going to the extreme of going on birth control just cause he wanted her to have bigger breasts. I wish she could see from my view how this is affecting both her and put friendship. I love her deeply- even this version of her- but I can’t help but miss when she was happy and codependent. What should I do as a friend?
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