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odetopie20
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**Just got back on after two years** I'm currently in college trying to survive haha (I survived and graduated in '18 and '19) . My number one goal is to find my inner superhero and help others if I can! I would have to say I'm probably, the most random/off topic person you'll ever get to know #truth. I can't help it haha part of my personality and you may get confused, bare with me haha (I'm still trying lol). Tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and try to give the best judgement of others :), which can be a backfire xD. I've learned my lesson from past experiences, now trying to focus on the positive right now. Hope to make good memories on here and have thick skin so I don't get offend easily hehe :D. Yes I laugh and giggle a lot haha... giggle bot!
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My Thoughts Control My Sleep
Healthy Living / by odetopie20
Last post
 November 28th, 2015
...See more Hello I've been here for about a month now. I can't sleep that much... My depression makes me wanna sleep all day. Yet my anxiety seems to take over my thoughts and keep me up all night! I begin to imagine things, taking me away from my sleep. It's hard trying to sleep when school work is due and everything seems to be going crazy. I procrastinate now more than ever and have an annoying next door mate in my dorm. On top of all that I'm just so tired but can not sleep. I wish my thoughts would shut up so I can sleep!
My Brother Needs MY Help
Addiction Support / by odetopie20
Last post
 March 14th, 2020
...See more I have an older brother that is 27 and I'm 20. On January 5th he will be 28 and I will be 21. It scares me that he is so close to 30! The reason for this is that my brother has been struggling with drugs and alcohol since he was a teen. It first started out with him being in a gang in middle or high school. Sorry I am the younger sister hard for me to remember some of this. Well I do know I would hang around him a lot, I looked up to him.... He came home beat up and was so weak the gang had jumped him. The family decided to let him go on to live with my aunt and her husband. At that moment, I lost my brother forever :'(. I told them to send him off to a boarding school and get counseling to help him. Haha I even researched all of this and gave them the paperwork! I was under ten at that age. No one wanted to listen to me... He left the house and it got worse he went over there and nothing helped. Found new friends at his school and started using again. That is when he started to get a record and it was so sad. My brother punched a hole in the wall at school his senior year, I pleaded with my family to get him more help now. This was a big warning sign, a cry for help I know my brother to well. After high school, he came back home and became a drug dealer in my neighborhood. On the same street, we lived on :'(. It hurt seeing him out there doing that, one day he picked me up from school and I saw him rolling it up and was drinking. Ever since then I have never gotten in the car with him. Honestly, back then I stopped talking to him for 2 years. Just could not look at him the same way. He never comes to family get-togethers; they ran him away with all the stupid talk -_-. My brother knows right from wrong, he just needs more help. Everyone turned to me to not be like him, even today they still do it! I hate it; I love him he is all I have! How could they... :'(. I have noticed that my brother suffers from a few disorders and no one noticed it but me. We have tried to put him in rehab and half way houses and other places but he does not want to finish or go. I understand I put myself in his shoes to get a better viewpoint for how he is feeling and doing. My whole view of him changed, I learned to talk to him in a way he listens to me and does not think I am against him. Throughout, the years he has been dating girls that just bring him down and he uses them. There is one that never seems to leave, they are always at it! She has three kids and they call him daddy. He is a good person but not the best role model right now. Told him I would help him, gave him resources that would help. He looked at me and told me it is too late for him but not for me and wish he could change his life. I told him that was not true! He can make it too! My brother drinks and smokes to cope with his disorders too, which is bad. We were not raised this way and it makes me sad that he thinks it is too late. I thought he was getting along fine with his life until I found out my aunt kicked him out again and he just got out of jail and told my granny he wants to go back to his old ways. :'( My aunt said she does not think he will ever get better,that he has 27 years of life and nothing to show for it. I know he will make it and do better I believe in him even if it's hard to talk to him with his anger problems. Mom did tell him she was raped and had him, I'm not sure if that was the best thing to do.... But I'm glad she kept him because I he's my heart and I love him so much. My dad, granny, aunt, mom, and uncle will be here for him no matter what even if it's hard now. I still have faith that everything will work out!
Support Them
OCD & Related Behaviors / by odetopie20
Last post
 December 3rd, 2015
...See more After watching the TLC show about hoarding, I realized my granny is actually a hoarder. She buys more than she needs, with clothes and her sewing products. I've slowly started to help her make a plan of what we will do with the items. I know that attachment happens with things, so I promised her everything will be donated to help others instead of laying around. I even got her to watch a couple of the shows and it opened her eyes to what might happen to her home one day.
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