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panickedclikkie
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PathStep 96 Compassion hearts37 Forum posts11 Forum upvotes11 Current upvotes11 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2026 Member sinceAugust 9, 2020
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[updated, august 4th 2021]

hello! you can call me october.

please ask for my pronouns if you want to know them.

i'm often busy with offline things, and i get distracted very easily, please be patient with me.

(i can't change my username, so please don't heavily associate me with it, thank you.)

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Started therapy/counseling- not feeling the best about it?
Depression Support / by panickedclikkie
Last post
 October 24th, 2020
...See more content/trigger warning: therapy, m3ntal h0spital mentions, s-lf h-rm/su!c!de mentions (not actions) . . . Hi, I'm a teen who recently reached out to my parents about my mental health issues. I had my first counseling session today. My counseler is really nice, and he's really helpful- I'm just not good at talking about my issues. I feel guilty whenever I reach out about stuff because I feel like a burden. I feel like people will treat me differently, and that's not what I want. I know that talking about my issues will help lead me towards recovery, but there's so many things I'm worried about when I talk about issues. I feel like I'm a burden to my parents, and I know that when I was answering my counseler's questionaire, I didn't answer all of the questions with "yes" when I should've answered more with "yes." I'm set at a moderate risk for certain issues, and if I'd answered another question with "yes," he would've told my parents to send me to the hospital. He's already told them that they can (and should) have me keep my door open when I seem to be upset to make sure nothing bad's happening. Nobody in my family (or at least my close family) goes to therapy or counselling. I'm the only one (to my knowledge) who has these sorts of issues. I don't want the rest of my family to know because it'll just stress me out, but they'll find out eventually. It just makes me feel even more stressed out and down than before. To be honest, I just want help. I just want to feel better, and I know reaching out will help me. But it makes me feel awful most of the time, especially since I have to actually talk about my issues instead of sending them in a message. In general- I just feel trapped in a loop. Actually talking about my issues with a counseler will help in the future, I'm aware of that- but I just feel so nervous when talking about stuff, and then I feel like a burden after I talk about things. It just feels hopeless in a way.
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Introduction
Self-Harm Recovery / by panickedclikkie
Last post
 August 11th, 2020
...See more Hello! I'm panickedclikkie (my screen name,) but you can call me Flicker if needed! I just joined 7 cups yesterday, and I'm excited to see my growth. I'm an undiagnosed teen from America who can't really go to a psychiatrist or a therapist at the moment, so I'm hoping this will help me! A bit about me, I guess- I'm an introvert, I love watching The Office/Parks and Rec, my favorite bands/music arists are twenty one pilots, grandson, and Au/Ra (I've been trying to listen to idkhbtfm as well.) I have three cats and two dogs- I'm more of a cat person, but I love dogs too. I like to read and write, but I also draw as well. I'm not in college yet, but I hope to major in psychiatry or psychology once the time comes. Thank you for reading this, have a great day!
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Entomophobia (Fear of bugs)
Anxiety Support / by panickedclikkie
Last post
 August 9th, 2020
...See more Trigger warning: (possible) anxiety attacks, bugs, weird sensory stuff Alright, so I guess I have a fairly common phobia. Bugs. Honestly, it's worse than what it really seems like. For me- I'm not really scared of the idea of killing a bug or getting near one, but as soon as one gets near me- I freak out. I get really close to having a full anxiety attack, and it's just generally not great. I guess that's the main issue. I don't really mind the thought of bugs- but if one gets near me, I'm terrified. I know they're not dangerous, I just don't want one near me. It's more of a sensory thing. I hate the sensation of anything crawling on me (and sometimes it feels like something is crawling on me when I'm trying to fall asleep,) and buzzing bugs freak me out. I really just don't like the sound of flying bugs, I don't like the sensation of bugs- etc etc. Having one near me triggers those fears. The part that really bothers me is that I'm not even in an area where there aren't many bugs. Bugs are everywhere where I live. I think that's it- I don't really know how to end a post, I guess, does anyone know of any way to help with this phobia? I know it's quite common, but I don't know what to do about it.
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