"I am not my worst mistake. I am not my addiction. I am a mother, a survivor, and a woman learning to choose healing one day at a time."

Hi, I'm just here trying to let people get to know the real me through my story.

l've always been the kind of person who questions everything. Sometimes I don't understand why I'm going through something until much later, when I can finally see what it was teaching me. I'm about to turn 40, and some days I still feel like I can't get life right.

But I'm choosing to believe that every day is another chance to try again. #OneDayAtATime

I'm a mom of nine-six boys and three girls.

I'm definitely a boy mom.

I've struggled with a lot. ADHD. People-pleasing. Addiction to unhealthy relationships and sex. I can go from "Please leave me alone" to feeling so overwhelmed that I'm scared of my own anger. Those aren't thingsI’m proud of, but they’re part of my story, and I’m tired of pretending they don’t exist.

I’ve been out of prison for a year now, and rebuilding my life has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. More than anything, I want to become the mom I know I can be again. The breakup that sent me down a dark path changed my life, and my children paid a price for choices I made. That’s something I carry with me every day. I don’t know if I’ll ever completely forgive myself, but I refuse to let my past define the rest of our Right now, I’m lying here on day three of my second miscarriage. I’m in pain. I’m grieving. I feel lost and stuck. While the world around me keeps moving, I’m searching for answers.

I’m trying to understand why I think the way I do, why I react the way I do, and how I can heal. Not just for me, but for my children. I don’t want them to inherit my pain. I want to break the cycle. I want them to see that healing is possible, even after you’ve made mistakes.

I’m not looking for pity. I’m looking for growth, accountability, and people who understand that healing isn’t linear. If you’ve ever had to rebuild your life from the ground up, I’d love to connect.

One day at a time. ❤️