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Relationship Stress / by redIdea5870
Last post
 November 18th, 2025
...See more I dated a guy for three years and we loved each other a lot! It wasn’t perfect. It was toxic actually. I gave my time, made sure he had lunch and dinner, made sure he had heat in his house, always came over to keep him company, listened to him. He always me me forget about being stressed and he did what he could he’d get a bottle or something to smoke for us. He was a vibe fr. We were talking and I said my biggest trigger is betrayal. I told him why and we left it alone. I come across his twitter account and he has only fans. He had *** posted and didn’t say *** to me but we were talking for 6 months so I let it slide cause we weren’t official. He deletes the account though.. I noticed he on some freak *** and fr that *** was sexy but just do that for me. He said it’s easier to talk like that online cause it was a persona… nah. We are official on new years and in 4 more months I found out he has a catfishing addiction, porn addiction, he’s taking pics of ppl while they’re using the bathroom. He never told me being transparent. Everytime I’m finding out so he tells me he had a lot of trauma growing up and when he has sex niggas ghost him afterwards so he doesn’t trust ppl with his body. 3 years later I built up resentment. I taught him how to cook, clean, budget, co habitate with ppl. He eventually stopped a lot of his addictions. He struggled with his porn addiction but I never believed him and always accused him of doing *** or cheating. He never understood why though or made up for that ***. He only showed me I can’t trust him and when I start he breaks it. I told him this *** isn’t a voucher. U stop for a while and get to do it again the *** means stop. He catfished on social media we agreed he’d get off social media cause he might be tempted. I’d stay on the phone on FaceTime so I don’t question him and I still questioned him. Fr I didn’t trust him. I did lose my cool and hit him like 4 times and I spat on him and called him derogatory names. But I told him my trigger was betrayal and he’s honestly naive af so I was always protective of him too fr even though I did hit him. We started arguing every day for basically 3 years straight.but made up the same day too but knew it was because we were coming back from a lot of his bull ***. We got into it bad one day I threatened to hurt him and I go to jail for a week. I took the l and apologized fr cause he was probably scared as ***. While I was in jail he got caught with a minor… tf he caught a serious charge and he is fragile and sensitive as ***. I started to yell and I realized that he was scared for his life. So he gets in jail and I’m mad as *** but his whole family is dead and he doesn’t have anybody. So what would Jesus do? I supported him and made sure he had me to make him laugh and *** but I was definitely questioning what he was doing in there fr. I stopped eventually cause he started losing his mind I started focusing on that support he needed. We said no arguing, his mom gave us advice and said somebody has to walk away. He brought up some *** about me not trusting him being entitled n *** and I told him I don’t wanna talk about that cause we r gonna argue. He said he doesn’t feel heard. I told him u can talk about it later but now is not a good time just like he had times where he didn’t want questions so I stopped. I told him he needs to give what he ask for fr im tired of putting him first all the time fr he got mad and big mad so I hung up. I told his mom I took her advice and walked away and she tells me I shouldn’t have done that. Told her she wasn’t gas lighting me wasn’t gonna let her call me controlling and manipulative cause im the one who took real steps to try to help her very broken son even though I wasn’t perfect. She kicked me out her apartment fr. Since he’s been in there I’ve been by her side and I see where he gets his *** from now. Am I wrong?
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Am I wrong?
Relationship Stress / by redIdea5870
Last post
 November 17th, 2025
...See more I dated a guy for three years and we loved each other a lot! It wasn’t perfect. It was toxic actually. I gave my time, made sure he had lunch and dinner, made sure he had heat in his house, always came over to keep him company, listened to him. He always me me forget about being stressed and he did what he could he’d get a bottle or something to smoke for us. He was a vibe fr. We were talking and I said my biggest trigger is betrayal. I told him why and we left it alone. I come across his twitter account and he has only fans. He had *** posted and didn’t say *** to me but we were talking for 6 months so I let it slide cause we weren’t official. He deletes the account though.. I noticed he on some freak *** and fr that *** was sexy but just do that for me. He said it’s easier to talk like that online cause it was a persona… nah. We are official on new years and in 4 more months I found out he has a catfishing addiction, porn addiction, he’s taking pics of ppl while they’re using the bathroom. He never told me being transparent. Everytime I’m finding out so he tells me he had a lot of trauma growing up and when he has sex niggas ghost him afterwards so he doesn’t trust ppl with his body. 3 years later I built up resentment. I taught him how to cook, clean, budget, co habitate with ppl. He eventually stopped a lot of his addictions. He struggled with his porn addiction but I never believed him and always accused him of doing *** or cheating. He never understood why though or made up for that ***. He only showed me I can’t trust him and when I start he breaks it. I told him this *** isn’t a voucher. U stop for a while and get to do it again the *** means stop. He catfished on social media we agreed he’d get off social media cause he might be tempted. I’d stay on the phone on FaceTime so I don’t question him and I still questioned him. Fr I didn’t trust him. I did lose my cool and hit him like 4 times and I spat on him and called him derogatory names. But I told him my trigger was betrayal and he’s honestly naive af so I was always protective of him too fr even though I did hit him. We started arguing every day for basically 3 years straight.but made up the same day too but knew it was because we were coming back from a lot of his bull ***. We got into it bad one day I threatened to hurt him and I go to jail for a week. I took the l and apologized fr cause he was probably scared as ***. While I was in jail he got caught with a minor… tf he caught a serious charge and he is fragile and sensitive as ***. I started to yell and I realized that he was scared for his life. So he gets in jail and I’m mad as *** but his whole family is dead and he doesn’t have anybody. So what would Jesus do? I supported him and made sure he had me to make him laugh and *** but I was definitely questioning what he was doing in there fr. I stopped eventually cause he started losing his mind I started focusing on that support he needed. We said no arguing, his mom gave us advice and said somebody has to walk away. He brought up some *** about me not trusting him being entitled n *** and I told him I don’t wanna talk about that cause we r gonna argue. He said he doesn’t feel heard. I told him u can talk about it later but now is not a good time just like he had times where he didn’t want questions so I stopped. I told him he needs to give what he ask for fr im tired of putting him first all the time fr he got mad and big mad so I hung up. I told his mom I took her advice and walked away and she tells me I shouldn’t have done that. Told her she wasn’t gas lighting me wasn’t gonna let her call me controlling and manipulative cause im the one who took real steps to try to help her very broken son even though I wasn’t perfect. She kicked me out her apartment fr. Since he’s been in there I’ve been by her side and I see where he gets his *** from now. Am I wrong?
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