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I always make things worse
Anxiety Support / by shyGigabyte
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 January 23rd, 2022
...See more In my relationship it's come to a head several times that 1. I don't take criticism well (and I'm working on it, not my point) and 2. when I am upset after being criticized, and they ask if something is wrong, my knee jerk reaction is to lie and say everything is fine. They hate lying, understandably. I lied for years about me self harming, and I try my absolute best not to lie anymore because it's not fair to them and doesn't help me. But after they've said their piece and are asking me what's up, I get irrationally scared that I'll make things even worse by trying to speak my mind. But me lying and then coming back to say my piece later always always always makes things worse. They can tell when I'm lying, and it really really upsets t How do I beat that knee jerk fear? I'm gonna try telling myself that I'll either mess it up then by speaking the truth or I'll mess it up later because I lied. But right now I'm anxious because my partner is still mad at me and I'm not sure I'll have the confidence to remember to say something next time this comes up ar? hem.is comes up
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First time I've made myself so anxious I threw up
Anxiety Support / by shyGigabyte
Last post
 November 16th, 2021
...See more So, this morning was the first time I've ever made myself so anxious I threw up. I've had anxiety for years. I was depressed for a while but I haven't had a problem with that for a year or two now, mostly due to my boyfriend being a support but I also went to therapy for a few months, that helped. I've had panic attacks in the past, ones that have left me shaking and crying and feeling like I'm never gonna get through it, but today's was the first time I actually made myself so anxious I threw up. I know why I was anxious, I've been anxious over this situation before, and I'm fine now. But the fact that I actually made myself physically sick scares me.
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