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straightforwardAcai5419
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General Support / by straightforwardAcai5419
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 January 9th, 2024
...See more TW just incase things about body dysmorphia make you feel uncomfortable please don't read this . . . . Hello, uhm this is my first time posting here. It took me quite a while to figure out how to post threads lmao. Anyway, lately, I just have been really upset. Like I just can't deal with what I'm going through anymore. I have body dysmorphia, it has been worse these past couple of months. I have been crying myself to sleep, one night was really bad. I always get fixated on certain parts of my body and then get upset. I try to avoid looking in mirrors although I cant really. Sometimes I'm just not "hungry" to eat. I'm always worrying about my weight, I swear at one point I said I would rather be underweight than normal. Like its seriously making my everyday life so difficult. I go to a therapist, and I have talked to her about this but I still walk out feeling the same, my friends have tried to help and I mean they make me happier at the moment, but they don't make me feel any better about myself. I honestly gave up on talking to them for support. No one can help me, nothing can help me feel better, make me feel like myself again. I'm always going to be stuck like this I cant get out of it. It's going to keep getting worse and worse. My friends say I'm pretty, tbh i think they are just kidding themselves, or at least they are just saying that to make me feel better about myself when they don't care. I look in the mirror everyday and just think why do i look so ugly, why am i so ugly. I probably judge myself on average 2 hours a day even more. I started wearing makeup last year to at least try and make myself look one bit pretty, I still wear it to this day because otherwise I feel even more insecure. I also just hate my voice, my personality and every other feature of me. But then it just makes me sick to think I'm always going to be like this, no one or nothing is going to help me feel better about myself. I'm basically stuck in a hole and can't get out. I don't know what to do, please help I hate myself
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