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heartbroken and unsure what to do?
Relationship Stress / by sydcam99
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 March 26th, 2017
...See more Im 17 years old and my now ex boyfriend is 16 so, please dont make any rude comments or whatever it may be. yes we are young and each others first love but it doesnt change the fact that it hurts.. Basically my boyfriend of a year broke up with me but didn't exactly have a reason. it was extremely unexpected being that we were great all the week until that friday night. he was texting me and saying he was just done and so i lost it and cried all night blah blah you know. so the next day he came over and talked to me in person but basically said he wasnt feeling it anymore, there was no future for us and he doesnt want to be in a relationship right now. i honestly dont believe that his reasons are true because we have talked about future and how we willl make it work with me going to college and his family business stuff. i planned on going to college that was actually closed to where hed be working in order to ot have to do long distance. we had all these dreams and plans and ideas so not seeing a future all of a sudden seems like a lie. he told me he loved me the day of the night he broke up with me and we spent that whole week like normal. in school he would make some jokes about us pretending to break up and see what people would say and i would just kiss on him and joke back. i didnt think anything of it we always joke around with each other. when he ended it i begged and pleaded id do anything for him not to do it. he held me while i cried and even called me babe three times! the week went on and it kept hurting and i gave him his stuff the next week and cried and we talked and he said i need to move on. we are still going to prom together in april and he said itll be fun. we didnt talk for awhile then he snap chatted me and just casual talk and one morning he asked if i wanted to be like friends with benefits. and yes i know that is dumb but i really didnt care because i missed all that. so that friday night we went to a party and he asked if i wanted to leave with him so we went off and hooked up. i was fine with it until we were done because we didnt say i love you or cuddle we jut sat their awkwardly. i tried to hide my crying and he asked what was wrong and i told him how i miss him and all that. he said maybe later just not right now so im confused how he went from no future to later? he said we will do all normal things like going to the lake this summer with family, prom, and we can still talk and be best friends. that night we kind of went our seperate ways. then he didnt talk to me at all that weekend and my friend went off on him for letting me go and since then he completely cut me off. i asked for my stuff back and he didnt reply. its been about three weeks since the break up and two weeks since we spoke. last night he was at the same party as i, and i was drunk (shh). i remember asking him if we could hook up and he said it wasnt a good idea. i dont know if thats because i was drunk or he doesnt want to use me. then later on i went to him and asked him to pay his half for prom stuff and he didnt say much and he said he wasnt going to afterprom and i really want him to so when i walked off i told him to fuck off. (i was hurt). then i started crying on my friend and i smoked three cigs after each other and ive neveer smoked in my life. im mad at myself for being dumb but im just coping i guess. this was longer than intended but i just want help. i really miss him and want him back. so many cuples i know have broken up ad spet some timeapart and are betterthan ever now. im really hoping that by prom he will realise he mssed up and that he does want me. i know its probably dumb of me to want him back after he hurt me but i really do. we were best friends and i was always there for him no matter what. could this just be a teenage boy thing where he thinks he has to freedom in a relationship or should i just stop hoping? obviously nobody knows him personally so you cant guarentee that he will come back i just dont know what to do. i keep telling myself timewill heal and if its meant to be then itll be but its been too long. we are both each others longest and first real relationship.
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