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this is my current life story
Trauma Support / by thoughtfulLake7113
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 April 8th, 2015
...See more hello, I am new and this is my story. it was about 12 through 2 in the morning that's when I was born.I was a healthy 8 pound baby.I grew up there and send them knowing nothing. when I was four I realize how hard of life my mom had with my dad. Fought 24/7, whether if we were around or not. when I was abound 7 years old my second oldest brother started molesting me.I didn't know what to do, he told me to be quiet and keep the secret, so I did. never told anyone this will be the first.I was too afraid of my mom because I thought you would yell at me. Plus the fact that I was never close to my mom. But it wasn't just that, my parents abuse just to. My parents said they only hit us because they wanted to make us a better person. not just that but they also hit us for doing things wrong too. So you can only imagine why I was scared of my parents. I felt so lone in the work, but my sister told me to open up to her. My sister was my hero, she helped me through so many things. She was like my mother and father and sister put into one. The molestation and abuse continued until I turned 13 years old. thanks to my sister I'm here today she was my Savior I am very thankful for her. Recently my sister eloped( ran away to get married). It was very emotional for me. I felt like I was losing her and I was, I did. She lefted us without a warning, she told us that very night that she wouldn't get married soon, so we believed her. Next time we know, some people are knocking at our doors 5 am in the morning. I fell asleep on the sofa because I was too tired to walk up stairs. She lefted and I didn't even know or hear it, my mom blames me, but as they came in the unlocked doors I woke up immediately, yelling. So the whole house woke up, thaley sat down and told us my sister was going to get married with their son. My mom fell in tears, my dad had no emotion, I ran up stairs to check she wasn't really there. So I called her about 30 times, she didn't pick up, she didn't text back either. As I was calling and texting I was just as emotional as my mom. It felt like losing someone important and close to you. Then my mom called her a few times and her soon to be husband picked up and answered and gave the phone to my sister, all she said was thatshe was sorry and my mom said that she was so young and why does she want to rush into marriage so fast. There was no answers just apapologies. After crying my eyes out that while day, I had school the next day. U went o school not showing an emotion, but they kept telling me I looked tired. After school, I came home my mom was still crying, but this time asking and calling for help because she had no clue what to do when it came to weddings. I stepped away from the door and just walked up stairs. 3months later after that was my sisters wedding. We did not see them once, until the wedding. I was too busy to talkto my sister or to even make eye contact with her, neither did iI have time to talk to her soon to be husband. Then it was already time for them to leave ( it was like 3 p.m in the afternoon) and my mom and sister was crying and I didn't want to cry to I stayed at the door, they hugged and took pictures, I lefted to find something else to do and I had lots of people asking me if I would miss me sister. I didn't answer and if I did I said "no" but secretly I was dying inside. Then the wedding was over. I went back to school tired as I was that same day I found out what happened. I came to school happy getting away from that depressing atmosphere around my house, but little did I know sonething was headed my way to make everything worse. People were chatting and buzzing around like bees. I didn't know why and didn't find out till 5th hr. The teacher said that one of NY friends committeed suicide. I felt like everything dropped my heart sulk. Then I checked on of my messages on Facebook and it said that one of my other friend us gonna be homeless. U didn't know what to do anymore. Life around me seems to be ending and then she moved away the next day. But when I came home I finally released the tears I've been holding back the whole day, all I did was cry and cry. After I was done crying my mom told me she will have another job again and she wanted me to hold down the house and take care of my brothers.... This is where I am at right now....I have no one to talk to, so I googled that I needed someone to talk to cuz I had enough bottling up everything, so here I am! And this is my current life story. I am 16 years old, Iwas named after a flower. My name is cconfidential right now......
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