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yungmarq98
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hi. hopeless romantic here.
Relationship Stress / by yungmarq98
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January 18th, 2022
...See more hola. soy Marq. im a multi-genre independent artist from LA, and a part-time cashier at vallarta supermarkets. "what brings you to 7 cups?" to be honest, i don't know. i don't know if i even matter here tbh. i dont know if my issues in my mind are life-threatening or detrimental to my health enough for me to even be ASKING for help, or an ear. but here i am, i guess. i just feel like im losing myself. because of myself, and someone else. and i dont know who else to talk to, to really come fully clean and vulnerable about my inner thoughts of my personal midlife crisis. it really really bothers me, but since my family or friends arent in danger because of it, or theres no actual REAL-life crisis, i usually hide this side of myself away and dont talk about it in full detail or at all, as to not let the people i love always see me depressed or down over something they probably couldn't understand. but im starting to slowly realize that bottling emotions isn't a good thing... especially for over 2 years. bottom line is... im a hopeless romantic. I couldn't stress the word hopeless any further, as i feel just replacing the lowercase letters with capitalization wouldnt even help. i feel ive become so hopeless to the point to where i cant make decisions for myself to make myself happy anymore. i just make up temporary ones to mask the pain I feel about an occurance, and numb myself until i forget.... temporarily. there are a few other things I feel are wrong with me. but i can't really pinpoint them right now... me being a hopeless romantic may not be a danger in a widespread sense, but i feel like im a danger to myself. i feel like ive gained a lot more anxiety, depession, and FOMO because of the space ive been in for the past 2+ years now and honestly i dont think i need medication, a plan, homework, anything... i just need a vent. i need to cry, and talk, and be vulnerable around someone who just wont judge me. someone who can make me feel comfortable enough and safe enough to show the side of me im scared or hesitant to show others. i feel like the more i just come home from work and cry and talk my problems out to myself, the more insane, and existentially lonely i feel. everyone around me either is, or seems too busy or caught up in their own life to even probably know how to give the best advice to me, if not even listen, or care. my family probably would care. they'd probably listen. doesnt mean they'd understand. as a man living in 2022, its really hard for me to figure out where i fit in. in life, love, and socially. im super emotional and im oftentimes told to suck it up n deal with it. long story short... im carrying a lot of baggage. as this is an introduction, i would share more about my inner thoughts and what's exactly bothering me, but id rather privately chat with someone or anyone who's down to listen and check up on me every now and then. i swear im a very nice person, sometimes maybe too much so for my own good. but any stranger who lends a helping hand or ear out to me without judgement is a friend of mine. if you'd like to connect with me and ask me thins as well, i can try and reciprocate advice the best way i can as a listener. now that all that's been said.... can someone please help me burn this baggage. i dont want it anymore. :(