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AnarchyFox
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PathStep 6 Compassion hearts104 Forum posts29 Forum upvotes59 Current upvotes59 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2026 Member sinceFebruary 18, 2023
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Trying to be creative as much as possible!

I enjoy writing, photography, drawing, coding, and pretty much anything creative! It's also nice to enjoy video games, movies, music, and any type of media. I like pretty much every genre, but I'm mainly into comedy, horror, punk rock, stuff like that. 

I'm trying to overcome a lot of negative thinking, and am trying to focus more on the positive things in life! Trying to stay responsible but live more carefree (mentally). It's goin' ok so far lol.


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Not sure how to feel
Depression Support / by AnarchyFox
Last post
 March 11th
...See more I’ve been going through a lot of stress lately. Just social stuff, trouble with family and friends. Thinking about the future and my personality and how hard you have to work to get somewhere just to end up down below. Sorry, I realize that sounds whiney. Whenever I see posts about “what keeps you motivated”, “what keeps you going, etc, I always think that hope is what keeps me going. Or maybe curiosity. I’m curious as to what’s going to happen in the future? Life might get better, maybe not, but you never know ‘till you get there. But lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t really care what happens in the future. Trigger warning I guess, but I’ve been having dark thoughts about ways out. Sometimes quick intrusive thoughts, or sometimes just me pondering on it. I know I’ll never do anything directly to dip out early, but I keep thinking about it as if my mind is trying to motivate myself to do something. I’m not really sure what I’m expecting by posting this. I’m not really sure why I’m writing any of this on a public form. I know there’s not really any magic words anyone can say to help me, and the only way to really get help is by getting a therapist, or psychiatrist, or something. I guess it just feels better to get words out. It’s funny, when I was a kid I used to think people ending their life were so stupid. I always thought, “if you’re going to do something to yourself, why not do some last ditch effort to make yourself happy like sneak onto a boat heading to the other side of the world, or max out a credit card to buy yourself cool stuff”. I don’t think that anymore, so I guess I’ve matured. I’m pretty sure I’ll be sticking around. Just kinda keep falling down so to speak.
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Never alone with my thoughts
General Support / by AnarchyFox
Last post
 December 8th, 2025
...See more I was wondering if anyone felt similarly or had advice for trying to not feeling this way? I have a hard time feeling alone even when I’m truly 100% alone. Like, I’ll be alone in a building but I’ll still feel as if someone could be at the front door at any second even when I’m not expecting anyone. I wanted to try practicing singing recently but stopped because what if someone came by the house lol. Even in the woods I’d feel awkward doing anything weird cuz what if a hiker or someone sees me lol. Writing down creative ideas and things like poetry or stories feels hard too because I sometimes have cringe or dark ideas that I don’t up exploring because the thought pops into my head of ‘what if someone I know hacked me somehow and is watching everything I do’. I know I’m not important enough where someone would do that lol, I know it’s an irrational thought, but my mind always thinks like that for some reason. I started thinking about this tonight because I wanted to try to write some poetry, and I realized it could be cringe and I didn’t want to write it online cuz what if someone was hacking me and found it, and I didn’t want to write it on paper because what if someone came over and found it, and I realized I do this a lot and it’s not good for creative expression to just keep everything in my head and not put anything into reality. I guess TLDR; I feel like I’m always being watched in some way, and I don’t trust putting my thoughts/ideas on paper or digital. These might be a more niche problems, but has anyone felt similarly? Or does anyone have any advice? I have social anxiety so I guess this stems from that but it’d be nice to figure out a way to get over it lol.
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This pattern is getting annoying
Depression Support / by AnarchyFox
Last post
 April 11th, 2023
...See more I’ve noticed a pattern…. that I’ll have some “life-changing” thought about how to go about life, and I’ll feel really happy and full of energy, not caring what anyone thinks. Then after a week or two that happiness will start to slip but I’ll try to hold onto it and keep thinking positive. Then I’ll just dip back into a sad state for what seems like weeks. Then eventually I’ll have some “life changing” thought about how to go about life lol. Then again and again it keeps happening and it gets really annoying. Anyway
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Am I just overly emotional??
General Support / by AnarchyFox
Last post
 March 29th, 2023
...See more So, I think a lot. While I’m at work my thoughts are constantly filled with negative thoughts, and I’ll try to think positive and creative thoughts, or even try to think no thoughts at all, but I’ll forget and realize that I’ve just started thinking negatively again. Negative thoughts are mostly related to self hate, with the occasional intrusive thought lol. It seems that over the last five years things have gotten better and worse in regards to my mental health. I’ll be happy for a week and think everything’s all better and that it was all in my head. Then after a little while the negative thoughts will creep back into my head. And I’ll feel that I bring more bad to the world than good. I’ll feel like everything is kinda pointless. Anyway, the reason why I’m saying this: I know people that have it a lot harder, people who had loved ones that died, people who are in financial crisis, etc. And I know my problems aren’t that bad. I don’t have any reason to be depressed. But I still can’t help but feel horrible. And if I don’t have a reason to be depressed then what am I? Just really emotional or dramatics or negative? Sometimes I feel like it’s all in my head and that I’m just subconsciously making it all up for attention or something.
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My Intro!!!
Depression Support / by AnarchyFox
Last post
 March 19th, 2023
...See more Hey, I’m new here! I made an account a while back and kinda lingered around, but I wanna start being more active in the community. So, here’s my sick intro. I’m a dude in his early 20s. I’ve been trying to figure out my problems, which has been going… eh… not as well as I would hope lol. Been stuck in my head a lot with negative thoughts (about myself and the world) but fear not, I do plan on getting insurance and getting therapy or something! Sometime in the future… Eventually… lol. Uhm, I‘m not used to doing intros so I’m not sure what I do and don’t share about myself. I like arts of all kinds from paintings and music to movies and video games. Stories are my passion! I look forward to interacting more in the community. I think I’m pretty bad at giving advice, but I’ll do what I can! lol Thanks for reading my intro!
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