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Arcanefrost
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Bad Friends?
Relationship Stress / by Arcanefrost
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 November 6th, 2014
...See more In the past few months I've gone completely downhill... My really good friends stopped talking to me once summer started...they started doing drugs and drinking around that time. I don't partake in those activities because I've dealt with it since I was in the 3rd grade. I've lost a good friend to drugs (she's still alive but she's never been herself since) . I expressed after school started back up that I didn't want to lose them too but it seems like they don't give a shit.. Honestly ..i don't care if they drink, smoke, or do drugs as long as they can hold a conversation about something besides the fact that they drink, smoke, or do drugs. The few times I've conversed with them since it's all they ever talk about. I just want a meaningful conversation.. One out of the 3 times they talked to me over the summer was when they were high and wanted me to bring them food...and I did. I figured they would like me then, but no they didn't talk to me.. I just want a serious friendship. I don't want a bullshit mamby pamby "everything is perfectly fine" type of relationship with them. I want to have fun but be able to have deep conversations. But They tend to think the only way to have fun is to be on something. I've just been so alone lately, depressed, not willing to get up and do anything...school is the biggest burden , one of my teachers has given me so much stress and anxiety that I've actually considered dropping out.. I've never seriously thought about dropping out ever in my  life, I'm graduating in May and that's the only thing that is keeping me going isn't that sad... I'm just a failure..I'm boring, ugly, and fat. No one likes me,  
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