Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
Blueskymind
1 135 M Embraced 1
PathStep 1 Compassion hearts16 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes5 Current upvotes5 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2023 Member sinceNovember 21, 2022
Bio

Hi,

I love reading. Anything from serious literature to sci-fi to psychology and philosophy to science and history. Also love to write. I mostly write Fiction, short stories and a few Novels that I hope to one day publish as well as poetry, essays, and journals. I also love art and paint when I can get the chance. I mostly use oils and I guess it's a sort of modern adbstract hybrid. 

I'm on here to learn more about myself and self improvement and discovery. If I can also help others along the way that would be awesome. 

Recent forum posts
Blueskymind profile picture
Feeling guilty
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Blueskymind
Last post
November 24th, 2022
...See more I have been married 12 years. Have two kids. My wife and I haven’t had sex in 6 years or more. Even before that it was only a few times a year. She’s accused me of being gay. I neither denied it or admitted it. She made me feel so anxious and stressed about sex. I have had a few experiences with men when I was single. A lot of people always asked me if I was gay. Even gf’s would assume I was bi. I always felt embarrassed or ashamed. With women I enjoyed sex, but it always felt like something was missing. I still think women are amazing and beautiful but don’t really feel romantic or sexually interested in them. I have always had more women friends. At parties’ guy would be talking about fixing their car or projects around the house and I was bored to death so would gravitate toward women who I felt like I had more in common with as I liked reading, writing, and art. Whenever I fantasized about sex 95% of the time it was about a guy. I always told myself it was just because I needed sex and if I was in a relationship with a woman I wouldn’t think about men. Those thoughts and desires never went away though. But now being with a man is almost all I ever think about. Being with a man and how wonderful it would be. My wife and I are more like roomates so I think maybe it would be okay for me to have a male friend who I could explore my desires with. But I often battle with feeling guilty. Just recently I Have come to the conclusion I’m probably mostly gay. Coming to the realization is both exciting, happy, and yet terrifying.
Talk to an expert therapist
Firstly congratulate yourself on reaching out for support! This is such an...
Talk to Kajsa Now