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I feel like am raising my mother
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 March 25th
...See more When I look at myself in the mirror, I no longer see someone I recognize, to me, I am a complete stranger now. I promised that I would never submit myself to the situations I find myself in now, 15 years old, smoking, drinking, having sexual relations with someone who is 20 years old, I am a disgrace to myself. Sometimes, I want to go back to being a child, to have someone take care of me and for me to simply be childish, watch a cartoon, eat a candy, not have to worry about bills to pay and a family to feed — that is the worst feeling, I feel like I am not being raised by my parents — by my mother, since my father is already gone. I feel like I am the one raising her and raising her children, and that is horrible. I am afraid of becoming like her, bitter and throwing the responsibility of my life onto other people, God, I would rather die than one day look in the mirror and see her reflection. My house is a ***, my school is a ***, my friends are not my friends, and my boyfriend, who is 20 years old, I feel like he is only with me because I am easy for him, easy sex for him. Sometimes I think about trying to k1ll myself, I don’t even want to succeed, I just want to be h0spitalized for a while, away from home, away from the family that hates me as much as I hate them. I don’t want this l1fe, I don’t want to be an adult, I want to be childish just once, selfish just once and take care of myself just once. My shoes for going to work are falling apart on my feet, my pants are worn and torn, my school uniform is three times my size because it was donated, I could barely afford to buy my school supplies, and my mother still demands more, even when I am the one who pays her loan sharks, the house bills, she wants more, she wants everything from me.
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