I feel like am raising my mother
When I look at myself in the mirror, I no longer see someone I recognize, to me, I am a complete stranger now.
I promised that I would never submit myself to the situations I find myself in now, 15 years old, smoking, drinking, having sexual relations with someone who is 20 years old, I am a disgrace to myself.
Sometimes, I want to go back to being a child, to have someone take care of me and for me to simply be childish, watch a cartoon, eat a candy, not have to worry about bills to pay and a family to feed — that is the worst feeling, I feel like I am not being raised by my parents — by my mother, since my father is already gone. I feel like I am the one raising her and raising her children, and that is horrible.
I am afraid of becoming like her, bitter and throwing the responsibility of my life onto other people, God, I would rather die than one day look in the mirror and see her reflection.
My house is a ***, my school is a ***, my friends are not my friends, and my boyfriend, who is 20 years old, I feel like he is only with me because I am easy for him, easy sex for him.
Sometimes I think about trying to k1ll myself, I don’t even want to succeed, I just want to be h0spitalized for a while, away from home, away from the family that hates me as much as I hate them.
I don’t want this l1fe, I don’t want to be an adult, I want to be childish just once, selfish just once and take care of myself just once.
My shoes for going to work are falling apart on my feet, my pants are worn and torn, my school uniform is three times my size because it was donated, I could barely afford to buy my school supplies, and my mother still demands more, even when I am the one who pays her loan sharks, the house bills, she wants more, she wants everything from me.
@Bz7dornelasx "Sometimes, I want to go back to being a child..."
I appreciate your kind words from the bottom of my heart; receiving this support means a lot to me, especially now.
I really don't have anyone to talk to about this, about my life right now or the situation with my mother and my family. It's kind of disorienting, but I've gotten used to it. I can't solve it, so I'll just keep holding on :)
@Bz7dornelasx
You can try talking to a 7cups listener if you want , you can also talk to the ai Noni. 🫂
@Bz7dornelasx "I'll just keep holding on."
That's what I'm talking about! 💯 👏 There you go. Take each day one step at a time and know that'll you get through it. I'm proud of you! As for not having anyone to be able to talk to about all this, I hope you feel comfortable enough to utilize the 7 Cups platform and seek someone you can connect with to share. Truly being able to have a safe place to vent and offload the burdens on our hearts can help us feel better. ☆ Praying things all turn around for you in all aspects of your life!
I m so sorry you re going through all of this you are still so young at 15 you are still blossoming please don't hate yourself you are still young and you are in addiction it isn't your fault but the adults who failed you you didn't hurt anyone it's okay to be selfish and childish you shouldn't die why must you you aren't the one who did something wrong you don't deserve to d1r i wish i can hold you and hug you tight you deserve so much and certainly not a family who uses you friends who don't care about you or a boyfriend who use you for your body your body is precious please cherish it and i know it is hard to be free now but you can take little steps to free yourself for once you don't have to stay with a man who you don't feel well with for starters he is an adult you are still a minor my dear depending on the country this could be a crime take baby steps i can't promise you a lot but i promise that you can make it better make plans for your future when to move out save money and when the time comes don't look back live your life you have one life don't give it to others you ll suceed in life you ll meet someone who loves you and cherish you ,have friends who choose you and you know what even if you don't you ll have yourself and i learned that when things get hard you must love yourself even more it is us who stand beside ourselves when things get rough cherish it please write down things you still want to do things you want to see to keep holding on to life i do the same you are so strong and i m so proud of you we are all here for you 🤍🤍🤍💗💖💗
Thank you so much for every kind word everyone is saying to me!! I have never felt so welcomed before, and I feel that this platform truly is everything that was promised, caring and truly life-saving. I will strive harder and harder to become the best person I can be now, however difficult it may seem, I have faith that I still have a future ahead of me, which will not be shaped by my family but by me, thanks to your words I was able to realize that, thank you so much!!
I m so glad my words reached you i too was saved thanks to this platform it helps us to know we aren't alone never hesitate to reach out here when life gets hard or when you need advice you aren't alone i wish you a road filled with happiness and sucees i wish you blossom into a happy young woman 🤍🤍🤍
Sorry just read you were a boy well i still wish you blossom into a happy human being regardless keep going cheering you on ❤️💗🤍
Woah you are one strong girl𤧠i am 18 and wish i was more reponsible like you
Thanks!!
I'm actually a boy XD, I'm transgender!
I think i am spending too much time with sensie and ailura🤧 they got me wrong,i got you wrong,we all got eachother wrong👻
On serious note:I am truely admire how you still stood on your ground firm and responsible.I cannot imagine even myself in your shoes.
Hey stranger, I feel sorry you going through that . But just hold on and believe one days things won’t be the same , if you’ve made it this far then I believe you will come out of that situation just know it’s not permanent
I feel like I’m in the same shoes like you
I'm so sorry about that, I know how that situation is since I'm going through it myself. Count on me if you need to talk! It's good to have someone who understands our struggles.
Hello
I really appreciate the hard work you do and the hardship that comes with it. It's frustrating to see how we fulfil every responsibility but that is ultimately overlook and the people keep on demanding more and more
And when that person is your mom, it really feel so painful
Going back to being a child
I hope and pray you get someone who really care understand and don't put all the responsibility on your shoulder and let you handle it alone
Also about your boyfriend
It your feeling that matter the most And you are not bad on anything
Instead you are really strong inspirable person
Lots of love to you
I hope life really be kind with you
And you become the best person so that once you see yourself again in the mirror
You find a boy full of life and hope with ultimated possibility of growth
@confidentVision4766
Unlimited possibility of growth
Sorry typo
