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Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by Cait11617
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 March 12th, 2025
...See more Hey everyone, I’m not really sure how this platform works or anything, but I thought I could come on here and talk about how I’m feeling with my addiction. I became sober June 6th 2023, and since then I have felt really good about the fact I’ve been, but recently it’s progressively gotten worse. I just got out of a severely abusive relationship we had both gotten sober together but him becoming sober made him a man I never knew, my mental health has decreased so bad in the last 2 years, with not only abuse but the excessive weight gain I’ve had since. I can’t make my brain stop contemplating what if I had just stayed in addiction? Would my life be better or worse? Will I ever find out if it is? The thought scares me deeply, my DOC was heroin and crack, which if were being honest was bad but I never felt like I do sober, isn’t that the reason most start using? To stop this gut wrenching feeling , that’s why I did at least. I keep having vivid dreams of using almost daily for the last 3 weeks, but in the dreams, I can’t actually complete the task of using drugs, I get so close and then something happens to steer me in another direction. Im not too sure what to do, or how to feel, I try to talk to friends and family, but they’ve never experienced any of these things, so to them I just gotta get over it and move on. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I don’t know what I’m looking for on this page, maybe friends who can relate to my problems? Or know ways they’ve helped themselves get out? I hope to see some responses back❤️
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