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Celestine22
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Flashbacks
Trauma Support / by Celestine22
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May 16th, 2025
...See more Hi everyone, Does anyone know what I can do in this situation? A couple days ago I had a huge flashbacks to past traumatic events that I thought I already processed and was done with. I started fighting and defening me from my boyfriend, who was perplexed and panicking himself as he had never seen me like that and just wanted to let me know he would never hurt me, but with him trying to reassure me with physical touch and hugs, the more I freaked out and the more I was in the flashback. I didn't even see him in front of me anymore. We already talked about it, and he understands now how to support me better, and what was going on. However, last night, I couldn't sleep more than 20-30 minutes at a time without waking up with a shock, every single time I fell asleep, I was dreaming about violence, my past etc. This has never really happened to me so far before. What can I do?
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Book sharing
Reading & Writing / by Celestine22
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May 17th, 2025
...See more Hi everyone!  I would like to get in touch with people here that love reading and would like to share what they are reading about and hopefully have interesting conversations about any lessons / ideas / thoughts we share about the books.  Where I live, not many people read, even less in English and I just miss having conversations about the things I learn and read about. 
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Struggling again
Eating Disorder Support / by Celestine22
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July 13th, 2025
...See more A couple weeks ago I had to buy a scale to figure out how much my dog weighs, but now I have a scale again and Im starting to slowly obsess more and more about how much I weigh. Mainly because when I look online and calculate my BMI score Im considered overweight. I am not fat, I look good, but for some reason that number is slowly taking over again.  I broke up with my boyfriend in January, we lived together and he always made me food. Now Im on my own and I still struggle to figure out how to eat healthy, but also to take care of my body and cravings. Now Im all hung up again on the number of the scale, but at the same time, I need to get my period and just craving burritos and icecream. I just want to feel happy with my body and feel guilt free during these weeks when I do have cravings and might eat less healthy. 
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Relapsed...
Self-Harm Recovery / by Celestine22
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October 4th, 2024
...See more Hi everyone!  I'm so glad to be part of this 7cups community. I just wanted to share something about my past week. Since the end of last week it just felt that everything that could have gone wrong, went wrong. The past year in itself has been very hard as I have been dealing with my boyfriend and his drug addiction. I just collapsed over the past weekend. I just couldn't take the hurting and pain no longer. I relapsed in SH fully over the past week.  I did it daily, multiple times, I couldn't stop myself once I started and last night I told my boyfriend about it as it was really scary and I saw myself going down a path I didn't want to go down again. I'm not sure yet how to get myself back up and back to normal. I will take the coming weekend to relax, do things I enjoy, watching my serie, read some books, draw, make art, do some yoga, put on some music and sing along maybe. Just take care of myself again and get ready for the coming week.  I just want everyone to know, that it's ok to not always be the strong one. I always feel like I am on myself, that I have to be the one helping and supporting others and it's hard to accept help and support for a change when I need it. It doesn't make you less of a person, asking for or accepting help makes you stronger, not weaker. you don't have to go through life and challenges all by yourself.  I hope everyone has a good day. Stay true to yourself and keep fighting :)
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Feeling lonely
20 & Over / by Celestine22
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August 21st, 2024
...See more Hi everyone, I feel like I am making a lot of progress in self-development and growing.  However, I am seeing more and more that one big thing is missing in my life for me, like-minded individuals.  I love to read, learn and work on personal development continuously, however, I miss being able to share with others. I miss not having anyone in my life with who I can talk and process everything I am learning and reading. I have my boyfriend, but he hates reading and we seem to not be able to get into any deep conversations at all. I have my friends, but they seem to be interested in other things than reading and learning. And my family, however, I live abroad and we lost touch for a couple years...  Anyone going through the same? Does anyone has any tips / advice or want to get in touch?
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Family problems
20 & Over / by Celestine22
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July 24th, 2024
...See more Hi everyone, Not sure where to post this but I need some advice, some different perspectives on this situation. I haven't talked to my family for about 2,5 years now. I am 23 years old, I didn't know how to deal with the problems at home back in the day. I felt restricted, I felt like my parents just wanted to decide everything for me and couldn't respect that I was ready to choose my own path in life. I ran away from home.  I can now understand why they did what they did at that moment (police search team, going door to door at night until they found me, sending people after my then boyfriend and me to try to get me back home), and yes, they were right about my ex boyfriend, he was not the guy for me, he was not a good guy.  My mom and I have been on chat for a while now, just once in a while checking in to see how the other is doing. Now, my mother asked me if I would be ok to meet up some time, in person, she wants to know why I decided to cut all contact with her. I just don't know how to have that conversation. She didn't do anything wrong, it was because of my stepdad back in the day... I felt like I had to protect myself from him, especially after I ran away and he sent people after my boyfriend and me.  I just don't know what the next step might be, I'm really in panic mode the past couple days thinking about needing to have this conversation with her...
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