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Chamomilegirl
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Just another girl with BPD

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Is my sister toxic?
Family & Caregivers / by Chamomilegirl
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 August 19th, 2025
...See more I have an older sister, 2 years my older. We escaped an abusive household where I was the only one being abused, actually. Now we live with relatives and we don't have much space so we share a room with another one of our sisters. The room has only 2 beds. I first had one bed all to myself and she was supposed to share the other with our sister, in a moment of compassion, I gave her my bed and started sharing a bed with our third sister instead. She treats me very poorly. She turns the lights on and off all on her own preferences without ever asking out of politeness, she also maximizes the ceiling fan speed even when I'm feeling cold or when I'm sick. She never says hi when she's back from work. She acts like she's living alone, basically, and I'm just... Just "there" or whatever. She also takes the chance to yell at me or just coldly bully me whenever she can. For example, I was once looking for something under the bed. What did she do? She sat on the other bed and crossed her legs so her foot was right over my head, just casually. Then she acts like that's the norm and she loves me and basically I'm the one "exaggerating" or I'm a "drama queen", exactly quoting her. We used to be glued together growing up, I was always the one giving more, and she was always tantalizing me like this. But I thought it was just her personality and it's fine and just... Loved her. But I'm getting tired. I cry everyday, I'm feeling humiliated and powerless. Tried talking to her, she tantalized me more and said she doesn't need me in her life, anyways, all after I supported her our entire lives and took our father's beatings alone for her and the others. I'm feeling very hurt and I don't know how to set myself clear and make my situation better. I'm feeling helpless.
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