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forgive me dad,

Today I bumped into your stand

You asked me, “you kicked it?”

But I had kicked your bike in anger,

And you still fix your front car for me

Not yours, nor mine but “it”

And I’m still learning to hold my anger












































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Hello, I need relationship advice and/or suggestions supportive comments
Relationship Stress / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 August 25th, 2025
...See more What happens after someone blocks you and need to have a partner. What do you do with all that regret? Supportive comments only please. 
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Trauma through wars
Trauma Support / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 June 22nd, 2025
...See more I’m concerned about the wars in my his video wars that I just watched. I feel numb as the wars that happened like cyber attacks, and nationalism, like famine and gaslights… things that we don’t see on a daily basis, hidden behind the scene to earn our trust in a manipulative wold.  It feels harmful to me. 
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What’s your favorite song & why?
Music & Dance / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 August 2nd, 2025
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What do you do when you're really frustrated?
Addiction Support / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 August 19th, 2024
...See more I think the reason why I don't leave the house in the morning is because I feel that if I can take abuse, it can be over the phone. But I know my stress levels aren't helping it, idk there's just so much to think about. 
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What do you do when someone doesn’t take your best interests at heart?
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 July 26th, 2024
...See more Asking In Addiction
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Schizophrenia
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 June 20th, 2024
...See more I feel tired and anxious. I feel scared to leave the home, because I feel like someone or something is out to get me. And I know I’m struggling a lot more with, like violent thoughts. I want to trace them to their roots, because now I’m afraid of my father killing me, or something.  I often push myself. And I’ve found myself, like at this center with someone who also visited the psychiatric care, like me. I’m inspired by her story, and yet I know nothing about her. Something about her pulls always from me before I get a chance to talk to her. Her name is Sierra. I honestly thought I was going to go into the psychiatric care two times, before taking on this job of mine, which I took out my my own free will, but there this a tie there, with my mom.  So yeah, I feel like, I’m bulldozing my way towards this. All I got was desperation towards the end of the care, and I didn’t end up going all the way through to the home facility, which was basically the reason I was there.  I’m not compatible to my home, anymore, and I hate to admit that. Because now it’s a means to and end attitude. Thanks. 
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Seeking Support - AS
Addiction Support / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 June 26th, 2024
...See more So yeah. Intoxication. I feel stuffed , stuffy. Like I tried to bypass all my needs and such, and am not allowed such power play. I'm stuck in isolation , and I just feel like bypassing because I can't even use the restroom without feeling reprimidated by my parents in my head every day in isolation. It's driving me nuts like the movie, Camille. I don't know if it's part of my schizophrenia, but yeah while I use the restroom, tmi (slang), I see the old disc Ratatouille which my dad bought me. The tape kind. And how do you know , the person who I was desperate showed up. The very rat, no offense. But she was just as desperate, if she ever reads this sorry I'll treat you well. Everything I read goes away, as in I allow myself to identify with everything in order to get better , but I don't know if it's doing a god-damned thing . Esp. in I-solation . *exaggerates, exhilarates, whatever. I can't spell as an undergrad graduate, anyways . I need an I solution, meaning I hate my goddamned psychiatrist. How Dare I choose Kaiser, Amrite (slang) ?? I'll just people-please throughout my life and bypass. Or whatever. whatever floats my boat, or bloat. Thanks for reading. It's for the boy that I'll never have.
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Seeking Support
Addiction Support / by Cnguyen1
Last post
 June 24th, 2024
...See more Hi, so I never really allow myself to talk about even the simple things in life . Like I feel challenged to write and mainly speak about it in real life, but yeah I feel aroused // difficult to understand .., but I know it’ll be good once I put it out there. I feel ashamed for loving an older guy in here. They’ll never know it’s me , they’ll never know how abusive I am towards myself and thus , the people I’ll surround myself with , having had or having, I should say schizophrenia. The two go together because  Well, I had a lot of thoughts about them while at a High Vibe event in SF. I know I was there for them , and as a memento for that . yes , I feel alone, and isolated. I just want sex, if that makes sense . I don’t want to ID with my illnesses like they do . I want to craft my own response without having then listen to me and my story , if that makes sense for once . sorry if anyone had inappropriate thoughts. I totally felt gaslighted .
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