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Creamyyy
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Life feels odd
General Support / by Creamyyy
Last post
 July 17th
...See more II'm eating more junk these days and not as much motivated to fitness. Something feels odd in myself. Ii recently ended a toxic equation (an online interaction with a guy I was planning to date). And im relieved about it. But there is some withdrawal effects too. Basically a blow on self worth. I feel really bad in navigating life in such an alone manner. I feel unlucky sometimes. The kind of loneliness ive lived with maybe many few have. I want to put my mind to work. Got books to read. Got things to write.. I need to trust love around me to give myself a confidence boost. I need to see myself with compassion and not judge my emotions as weakness. I miss you all..... its so good knowing you all. Fill me in with some updates -- I wish to reconnect to my friends. I love you all. @cyanessence @Amanda84 @jesusredeemedme2425 @Torean @mytwistedsoul @SparkyGizmo @IzzyGamer @peachthinker662 @PiecesOfWhoeverIWas @YourCaringConfidant @Tinywhisper11 @Sunisshiningandsoareyou
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My unforgotten friend
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by Creamyyy
Last post
 July 2nd
...See more To start off with - i never had addiction But maybe for about 6 years I was a casual drinker, once a month type thing. Then I changed course. 10 years - But the mind hasnt entirely forgotten what it used as a tool to cope or escape heaviness of the heart I reoriented myself mainly through prayer and while its true for me that prayer is lasting relief and alcohol is temporary, a part of me wants to break down to it again, it feels like my inner need to cry against what feels unbearable.... I dont see myself as relapsing but I dont see myself forgetting my old friend either. Thats just our equation now. Somewhere together. Assuaging through memories. Telling me Ive already conquered my inability to bear my sadness ... im on a golden page... im just having trouble trusting it with an extra might....
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Feeling relaxed
Positivity & Gratitude / by Creamyyy
Last post
 June 28th
...See more Feeling really nice. Calm. Happy. Alive in the true sense. Connnected to my truth. Feeling authentic. It feels like a blessing - this moment. I feel like ive made a growth milestone. I have been struggling to feel contentment - i was struggling to gather patience and forgiveness against ills of certain others. I feel like ive conquered these spiritual anxieties and Im feeling joy of a child. Maybe it was the love from others, a vibe i connected to and feed to myself to feel healed. I feel in the arms of trust. Its nice to be here. Grateful to Almighty :) June 27, 2026.
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The Notebook
TV & Movies / by Creamyyy
Last post
 July 2nd
...See more Getting netflix recently has done me good. I started by watching a bunch of indian films i had seen perhaps 20 years back. And i genuinely didnt anticipate the impact they would have on me. It wasnt just nostalgia of my innocent youth and the feelings of love i had back then but a reconnection to myself. A lot of movies made me cry and Ive been so numb since several years to have shed a tear. I just feel like something amazing has transpired. I feel more like myself. Romantic love has been my core ever since I was a child. Along with other things in the mix , of course. But perhaps the adult depressive phase disconnected me from it. Well - today I made a switch to Hollywood and again beginning from seeing what I have formerly seen but forgotten So I saw "The Notebook" today. And it wasnt like a modern day chic flic. It had a pure vibe. The fire of love, the hurdles, the reunion - it all just felt so real. I guess they did a good job with the act. And Im really moved. I feel like this is the kind of good place of love I belong in. The old age togetherness inspite of the memory loss is also cute. Love should really be lifelong and the wedding vows of being together in sickness or health could have a true meaning after all. I have not been lucky enough yet to attract the desirable kind of love for myself so far but Im a thinker and I wonder if I do get it and we make it lifelong as well - would I want to depart from the world together? Im not entirely sure. But i do wonder about how id want to go away ideally and i feel like it would be good if it had some connection to romantic love as well. Theres an Indian film "Ram Leela" an inspiration from the tale of Romeo and Juliet and there too the lovers quit life together , although thats another heightened form of drama, but they leave a message of love for the community. I do wish to see love being able to revolutionise the world. I think the power of two is mightier than one. When 2 hearts are in love and embark together on a mission, i think that mission gets empowered manifolds through divine blessing... and that kind of mission carries an influential impact on those who are watching... youre leaving a legacy always... Id really like something like this for myself even if it carries a sense of unattainable fantasy and grandeur .... I do think anything is also possible. There is greatness in common lives and I do think beautiful tales of love still exist in the world we live in. Isnt mushiness just very human or is it just me? Feel free to share about your wishes with respect to what I mention. What kind of romantic love do you envisage? Would you like to leave the world holding your lovers hand or something different? If youve seen the film Id love to hear your feelings about it. If anyone has any good movie to recommend to me, feel free to tell me about it - could be from any language or genre. @Amanda84 @jesusredeemedme2425 @cyanessence @Torean @trueconfidant123 @mytwistedsoul @chillmoon
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Something feels amiss
General Support / by Creamyyy
Last post
 June 14th
...See more I dont know what it is... Something feels amiss.... I feel sad... My connections are just formal... I dont feel deep bonding with anyone... Will it happen ever? Im not sure...
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Dejavu type of thing
Religion & Spirituality / by Creamyyy
Last post
 June 11th
...See more Ive often in my life had dejavu type of thing. Someone told me it can be kind of connected to spirituality. Like before a spirit comes to earth - its kinda told of the journey it will have. But then that memory is taken from it. So u feel like ure exploring a new path always that u dont know anything about. But there are moments on that path where u "remember" your spiritual contract... Like moments where I feel like oh ya, i know that im meant to be here.... that sort of a thing... its like layer after layer is being peeled off slowly as you go forward in time.. and the new events kind of feel like theyre completing the missing pieces of the puzzle.... the mysteries uve had in life are kind of getting sorted out.....deeper and stronger meaning is being found.... and the conviction in it is getting magnified kind of thing. I wonder if others have anything to relate to or provide feedback on . Love ð©·
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