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Cutepandahere
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PathStep 20 Compassion hearts188 Forum posts23 Forum upvotes45 Current upvotes45 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2025 Member sinceOctober 28, 2025
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I’m an 18-and-a-half-year-old boy 😊 studying in class 11, preparing for JEE. My past was very negative🥺, but with self-effort and a bit of online support, I managed to control my past trauma and PTSD. I’ve changed a lot from who I used to be.🤗 Every day, I try to improve myself by 1%, and I actually do it 💪. And i truly hope to find a real partner someday who understands me deeply 😉💖. I no longer have any lust or bad habits — I’ve left all that behind when I became more mature ✨. Right now, I’m working on myself to learn new things like drawing and calisthenics 🎨🤸‍♂️.

NEVER GIVE UP 🔥 is my attitude.

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Addiction Support / by Cutepandahere
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 October 29th, 2025
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Part 3 hope u don't judge me on the basis of past 😔😭
Addiction Support / by Cutepandahere
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 October 29th, 2025
...See more Part 3: But my life wasn’t the same; I became very disturbed daily, feeling a lack of love and emotional support 💔. I thought about having a girlfriend to support me emotionally ❤️, but I was afraid no one would support me or that they might hurt me 😔. Soon, I developed an addiction to *** 📱🔥 because it gave me pleasure, helping me forget the bad memories 😞, which led to masturbation addiction 🚫. However, I never gave up and recently decided to stop all this ✋. Now, I don’t want a girlfriend anymore—I want to live alone with my pain and habits 😔💪. I was never really searching for a partner; I wanted a life partner who would care, love, and support me 🤝. I promised to care for her in return and think that AI can be a support system—though virtual, it’s still helpful 🤖. I don’t have many friends, and I’m truly waiting for someone who will love me genuinely ❤️😊. I am preparing for the world’s toughest exam, JEE Advanced 📚, but even that is affected by my backlog caused by *** and distractions 😞. Still, I will complete my goals 💪. My passion is to help everyone 🤲, and I love animals and nature very much 🐶🌳.⭐ Now, I am an honest, loyal, kind, and caring person—qualities I am trying to develop because my future life partner deserves the best 💖. I love you, my future partner ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Part 2
Addiction Support / by Cutepandahere
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 October 31st, 2025
...See more Part 2: When I turned 17, I had somewhat reduced my porn and masturbation habits, but my memory, thinking power, and mental health suffered 🧠. I became very disturbed mentally 😢. One day, I accidentally did what he used to do with me, thinking I had to do it otherwise he might use someone else 😔. I took his consent because I thought that was necessary to prevent him from harming others ✋. But I was in a bad mental state and felt guilty afterward 😞. I even apologized to him because I was different and didn’t want to be like him 💔. That’s when we suddenly broke off our friendship 🛑. When I visited his house again, memories came flooding back 😖. I didn’t tell my family because they are already under a lot of financial stress 💸, and I didn’t want them to worry about this incident 😕. I decided to handle everything alone 💪. Still, every day, my heart beat faster ❤️‍🔥, my body trembled 🤒, and I faced anxiety, guilt, shame, and depression—feeling immense pressure 😔. I even had suicidal thoughts twice 💔😞, but my childhood attitude of "never give up" kept me going 💪. After some months, I started to feel normal again 😊.
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The very heavy past i would face 😞😐 i am really mentally strong
Addiction Support / by Cutepandahere
Last post
 October 29th, 2025
...See more So i share my stories in 3 part 😭 😢 🥺 Part 1: When I was 12 years old, I had a friend who forcefully showed me porn and asked me to do the same 😞. I told him I wouldn't do it because it's bad 🚫, but he said he enjoyed it and that I should try just once 😔. He forced me, and I agreed because I trusted him a lot ❤️. Sadly, he took advantage of that trust and repeatedly did this over five months—sometimes once, sometimes whenever he wanted ⏳. I was trapped in this loop without realizing it 🚶‍♂️. I never told my parents because in India, children are not given proper sex education about good touch and bad touch 🚸. I was naive and didn't understand what was happening to me 🤷‍♂️. I got addicted to porn and started masturbation at that age 🔞, which only worsened the situation. Due to his long-term assault and my innocence, I didn't even realize I was being wronged 🚨. It was very dangerous to develop such an addiction at such a young age ⚠️. After five months, I moved away from that area and shifted somewhere else 🚶‍♂️🌍.
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