Part 2

Part 2:

When I turned 17, I had somewhat reduced my porn and masturbation habits, but my memory, thinking power, and mental health suffered 🧠. I became very disturbed mentally 😢. One day, I accidentally did what he used to do with me, thinking I had to do it otherwise he might use someone else 😔. I took his consent because I thought that was necessary to prevent him from harming others ✋. But I was in a bad mental state and felt guilty afterward 😞. I even apologized to him because I was different and didn’t want to be like him 💔. That’s when we suddenly broke off our friendship 🛑.

When I visited his house again, memories came flooding back 😖. I didn’t tell my family because they are already under a lot of financial stress 💸, and I didn’t want them to worry about this incident 😕. I decided to handle everything alone 💪. Still, every day, my heart beat faster ❤️‍🔥, my body trembled 🤒, and I faced anxiety, guilt, shame, and depression—feeling immense pressure 😔. I even had suicidal thoughts twice 💔😞, but my childhood attitude of "never give up" kept me going 💪. After some months, I started to feel normal again 😊.