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...See more I was broken up with after a 10 year relationship. There was so much love and affection and we are perfect for each other but the last year was hard because of difficult external circumstances. We both went very internal and struggled with speaking to each other on a deep level, intimacy and finding time to go on dates. We both acknowledged there was a problem eventually and I was willing to put everything in to make it right again but she left. I didn't contact her for 4 months out of respect for her choices and her space. She eventually started to message me for little chit chat. I requested to meet to catch up as friends and get closure and then backed out once she said yes because of fear. She stopped messaging for a couple of weeks then messaged and asked me to meet her. I agreed. We met and chatted deep, had a laugh and it was lovely. A little spark happened with me and I composed a message to her the next day asking what she thought about going on a date. I deleted the message because I thought it wasn't fair. She called me half an hour later crying and asking if I'd go on a date with her. I was over the moon! We went on a date. It went really well and there was absolutley a connection like we used to have between both of us. We discussed how we'd approach trying again and agreed with each other. It seemed really healthy and she was definitely into it and she planned to take me to the cinema the next week. I was so happy for a week. We were messaging and calling and it was all great! But out of the blue she asked to meet again. She said she was confused and that she loves me and wants to be with me but she has a gut feeling that she doesn't like. We discussed. I near enough begged her to really think about it. I told her not to talk to me for a few weeks and that we'll check in then. I find it so unfair that she has dragged me back down to that low point again just because of an impulse emotion but I want her back so bad! I feel disrespected and weak for caving and not telling her to leave me alone for good. I'm in so much pain but I love her and I have no doubt were meant to be together. I'm so confused! I don't know what I'm asking here... Maybe just a little advice or some similar experiences and outcomes. Am I being an idiot?

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