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EarthySage
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Mentally Exhausted
Family & Caregivers / by EarthySage
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 August 10th
...See more I am always in a state of hyper vigilance, I ruminate every conversation. I see patterns in people and my nervous system always feels in high alert. I read people beyond what they show me on the surface. I read situations which are usually correct. I come from a family of users, my mom displays histrionic and narcissistic traits and she lacks boundaries. It affects me even when I remove myself from the family. She had set sights on my fiance and she finds him attractive, she is highly manipulative and it’s affected my relationship. Now she wants what I have (like she does with anyone in our family) it’s harmed my mind and I can’t separate. I can’t connect with my fiance anymore, now she wants him I feel like I don’t. I have seen things play out with other family members with her so I stayed single for 14 years after she ruined my first relationship. Even though my fiance has done no wrong, he has a problem with setting boundaries and I see threats all the time in everything. I also was r*ped by her nephew whilst I was asleep years ago. This wwe after my mom had been making obscene accusations against her sisters. I felt like he hurt me because she hurt his mom. She’s betrayed me time and time again, telling lies about what happened to me. She harms everyone she comes into contact with. she has also tried to ruin my only relationship I have with my cousin (who I consider as my big brother) accusing him of being inappropriate with my daughter (which is completely untrue as I have spoken with both of them) what my mom does is so damaging. I know I have cptsd and I’m currently working with a therapist. my mind is so broken and I don’t know what to dos I avoid everything in life now, I don’t go out. I don’t see my fiance in person. I don’t trust anything anymore and I feel like it would be better for those close to me that I wasn’t around anymore
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