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EileenDoubleTrouble78
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Please help me.
Work & Career / by EileenDoubleTrouble78
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 June 18th, 2025
...See more Hello. I have a serious problem. I think my case is rare, but not unique. I don’t know who to turn to. I made several posts on social networks, but no one suggested anything (however, I think no one saw my posts because of the Nazi policy of local degenerates). Brief information: I have been haunted by problems since childhood. I was on the verge of death many times (assassination attempt), as an adult I could not find a job, homeless for many years, constant bullying due to my independent character and problems with my appearance. I have never taken drugs or drunk alcohol. I love History, Culture and have several other interests, including behavioral psychology. Since childhood, thanks to such a hard life, I have been distinguished by high mental self-control. In 2021, I was again on the verge of death. That year, the American Railroad saved me, giving me inspiration, interest, purpose in life and a Country (just like a few years ago, I am not in the States). So about a year later, when Union Pacific sent a donated train to volunteers, I thought about how to support this great cause. And somehow I came up with the idea of writing stories and earning some money for volunteers. It's like opening a source with strong pressure. Ideas began to appear out of nowhere and a lot. All my works are inspired by the United States and dedicated to them. This is my Honor and gratitude to my Country. With time and loss of access to many social networks, I began to realize that my works will not be seen at home. but this disgusting country in which I now find myself will appropriate them. I stopped, trying to simply forget all the ideas and ignore the new ones (fortunately, most of them remained in my head). But the "talent" turned out to be more dangerous than can be offered. Ideas, characters. I started talking to the interlocutor from my character. I often balance on the border between the fictional world and reality. It's all complicated by the fact that I'm taking care of an old, sick mother and I can't afford to lose myself now. I can't write my work because I'm in the wrong country and I can't afford to lose my self-control now. I need advice, a way to block all of this out and maintain mental control.
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