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I'm Essie and I care about you. I have struggled with self harm and suicidal thoughts for almost ten years now. I have bpd and have battled anorexia as well. Some nights I need to be held. Tonight I'm a listener. So nice to lie in rumpled sheets and listen. Cover me with words.

I'm so glad you found me on 7 Cups. First thing is first, I am proud of you for being here, that shows me you are at least somewhat interested in getting help and illustrates your strength. I know it's scary and impenetrable now, but I want to give you all the love I can and make you feel safe in any way. I love film, music, books, art, animals (especially Otters!!), people, and life. If you want to talk to me about any of those things we can do that. If you want to vent we can do that too. Whatever you need I will have your back. I can't promise you I can help your situation, but I do promise I will be here for you.

☟☟☟ QUOTES ☟☟☟

"Eros is a verb."

"I'm not a girl. I'm a genius."

“She was the third beer. Not the first one, which the throat receives with almost tearful gratitude; nor the second, that confirms and extends the pleasure of the first. But the third, the one you drink because it's there, because it can't hurt, and because what difference does it make?”

"But I took my fishing pole (fearing your fever), down to the swimming hole, where there grows a bitter herb that blooms but one day a year, by the riverside — I’d bring it here: Apply it gently to the love you’ve lent me. While the river was twisting and braiding, the bait bobbed and the string sobbed, as it cut through the hustling breeze. And I watched how the water was kneading so neatly, gone treacly, nearly slowed to a stop in this heat; frenzy coiling flush along the muscles beneath. Press on me, we are restless things. Webs of seaweed are swaddling. You call upon the dusk of the musk of a squid: shot full of ink, until you sink into your crib. Rowing along, among the reeds, among the rushes, I heard your song, before my heart had time to hush it! Smell of a stonefruit being cut and being opened. Smell of a low and of a lazy cinder smoking. And when the fire moves away, fire moves away, son. Why would you say I was the last one? Scrape your knee: it is only skin, makes the sound of violins."

"Who are we in moments of crisis or despair? Do we become deeper, truer selves, or lift up and away from a self, untethered from regular meanings like moths suddenly drawn toward heat or light? Are we better people when someone might be dying, and if so, why? Are we weaker, or stronger? Are we beautiful, or abject? Serious, or cartoon? Do we secretly long for death to remind us we are alive?"

“We are but skin about a wind, with muscles clenched against mortality. We sleep in a long reproachful dust against ourselves. We are full to the gorge with our own names for misery. Life, the pastures in which the night feeds and prunes the cud that nourishes us to despair. Life, the permission to know death. We were created that the earth might be made sensible of her inhuman taste; and love that the body might be so dear that even the earth should roar with it. Yes, we who are full to the gorge with misery should look well around, doubting everything seen, done, spoken, precisely because we have a word for it, and not its alchemy.”

“But it is a curve each of them feels, unmistakably. It is the parabola. They must have guessed, once or twice -- guessed and refused to believe -- that everything, always, collectively, had been moving toward that purified shape latent in the sky, that shape of no surprise, no second chance, no return. Yet they do move forever under it, reserved for its own black-and-white bad news certainly as if it were the rainbow, and they its children. . . .”

“Her antiquity in preceding and surviving succeeding tellurian generations: her nocturnal predominance: her satellitic dependence: her luminary reflection: her constancy under all her phases, rising and setting by her appointed times, waxing and waning: the forced invariability of her aspect: her indeterminate response to inaffirmative interrogation: her potency over effluent and refluent waters: her power to enamour, to mortify, to invest with beauty, to render insane, to incite to and aid delinquency: the tranquil inscrutability of her visage: the terribility of her isolated dominant resplendent propinquity: her omens of tempest and of calm: the stimulation of her light, her motion and her presence: the admonition of her craters, her arid seas, her silence: her splendour, when visible: her attraction, when invisible.”

“That sometimes human beings have to just sit in one place and, like, hurt. That you will become way less concerned with what other people think of you when you realize how seldom they do. That there is such a thing as raw, unalloyed, agendaless kindness. That it is possible to fall asleep during an anxiety attack. That concentrating on anything is very hard work.”

“I wonder why I don't go to bed and go to sleep. But then it would be tomorrow, so I decide that no matter how tired, no matter how incoherent I am, I can skip one hour more of sleep and live.”

“Passion has little to do with euphoria and everything to do with patience. It is not about feeling good. It is about endurance. Like patience, passion comes from the same Latin root: pati. It does not mean to flow with exuberance. It means to suffer.”

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Number of Ratings: 70
Number of Reviews: 26
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Languages English
Listener Since Aug 10, 2015
Last Active over 6 months ago
Gender Female
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Feedback & Reviews
Essie is like a breath of fresh air.
The most wonderful person ever. I am so honored to have met you and called you my friend. I love you "incredibly much" :)
Listener's support was very good ! helped me much fastly
Really great listener, empathetic and patient. Knows the right words to make you feel better!
Essie is a wonderful listener. Very thoughtful and non-judgmental. She does everything she can to help you feel comfortable and is a very dedicated listener. =)
I love talkative and fun listener..God bless Essie for her spirit. She made me smile and blushed with her curiousity (in a good way), and very patient. She was like sunshine on a rainy day. I feel hugged with her words. Thank you so much, Essie :')
This listener helped me through a very dark time that I was having. She is a very big help.
Great listener! Essie was empathetic, she also allowed me to open up and she wasn't pushy at all. One of the best listeners i've talked to so. Good job!
quite empathetic when it came to reading how I felt about things. I would say she's one of the better listeners on this site.
Literally everything was great. Personable, human, interested, emphatic and on top of that, quick to respond. Absolutely wonderful.
Awesome support !
really wonderful amazing listener
Very awesome and caring listener! Helped me a lot!
Very good listener
She was absolutely amazing. One of the best listeners I've talked to. She expressed concern and understanding for my situation and encourage me to do better. I feel so much better now. Thanks to this angel
Thank you so much for listening to some weird stuff I was at first ashamed to admit, and doing that without any judgment. You're the best!! Don't hesitate to talk to her! She's awesome! =D
lovely LOVELY listener ! she is great and l can not describe her because the word limit would exceed 1 million ;) but i'll keep the review simple and short for all you people reading her profile !! she is a listener who has a lot of hope and asks relevant questions in such a manner that my life seems to get better and better as the minutes go by whilst we talk :) she is really lovely and very inspiring and full of good will. l think this is getting to the point of an essay like structure but hey, to all the listeners and members out there : SHE IS A WONDERFUL LISTENER AND SHE HAS ALL THE KNOWLEDGE TO HELP EVERYONE ON HERE ! (the caps is used to emphasise my strong feelings :D) - raspberryOrange7450
Essie helped me through a difficult situation and stayed with me until I felt better. Essie's thoughtful questions and encouragement made it easy for me to talk - and that's saying a lot coming from me. I really appreciate the support. Thanks Essie!
I Loved Talking To This Listener, Reallu Made Me a Feel So Much Better And Helped Me A Lot!:)
Very understanding and caring listener :)
I needed a pick-me-up, and Essie gave me one. She really put things into perspective for me, and I felt better just by talking to her.
Thank you!
Thanks Essielovesyou! It was very helpful to chat with you about my problems, you are very supportive.
so easy to talk to and really helpful
Thank you for your honsety and careing nature
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