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Fatimash99
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 December 27th, 2022
...See more Hello everyone I am new here and I would like to explain my stuation and if you think I need therapy. Am I normal person? My online best friend and I have things complicated. for context: I am 23 years old female. I have feelings for him( he knows that i do kinda), I have been holding these feelings and I just outbursted because of jealousy, which led me to overreact and asking to end this friendship. I usually tend to see things better after my emotional outburst and i tried to correct what i did the next day because he is the best person i have ever known in my life. We have been there for each others for almost 2 years, all types of communication, transparency and support and i do believe he is the right match for me and things between us could work if we try enough. We both are so honest and straight forward people. So i asked him directly if he sees me as a future spouse (both of us are not ready for relationships now) I sucked up and accepted it, it's ok I asked to stay friends like we were but he asked for a time out a little break, to think about what to do and feel. Apparently I hurt him so much by my reaction to leave him, he cried and he doesn't cry about anything. I tried talking to him the day after and telling no we don't a break now we should stick together, we are both hurt and broken we can heal together but he refused after some arguing back and forth. Suddenly when arguing i felt something in me change it's like a switch in me just turned off, all the feelings i felt all shut down and now i don't even care if he wants to be my friend my lover and i don't care if he never talked to me? I feel kinda empty and nothing really matters. I am known to detach from people after some kind of war in my head but this time it happened so quickly so fast i am scared Is this normal? Is it normal to just let everything go in like 2 days span?
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